oh owen... i heard of owen wilson last night... i always had a weak spot for this very sexy man... i really hope he will be ok and overcome his depression and issues .... we all include you in our prayers... you are so talented and funny...
blog hopping...
i havent done that in a while... but its cool... ok ok... i am bored... but its still cool and interesting... try it out !!!!!!!!!!
Online friends...
online friends ... how cool... yeah i made a lot of friends online while my chat time a few years ago... and ya know what? ... if i still log on now and i see one... hey... they still remember me... isnt that cool
i spoke to pret today... so funny guy... there is vick and drex... drex is one of the first one i met online... and its so great to keep in touch... i dont have a lot of em but the ones i love most are still there... that reminds me of my darling friend darlene... oh miss chatting with her.... or play literati
its not easy to make REAL online friends... not the ones that want to get into your pants... i made a few and i am happy they are still around... even if its been a while
thanks to all my great chat friends.... mwah....
Lucky...
" so does he know how lucky he is ?"... asked my friend after i poured out my heart to her...i was confused... he has someone who loves him so much... after all the ups and downs... he is so lucky and doesnt even know... or does he?... does he appreciate it at all?... its an ongoing story... we spoke on the phone... its all good... we talked it out...
but... is that gonna work for me?... for him?... he doesnt want to talk about things i want to... lets talk it out face to face... sigh... so... what does that mean for me?... keep everything locked up till we meet and then let it out... wish me luck people...
so then...
so then... did he call? NO!.... ok... i didnt message him... left him alone... nada...
yesterday he messaged me....oh... he must be at work... night shift... a short " hope u are good and all is well... "
since i wasnt home and i left my phone to charge i saw it quite late... and i took my time answering... even thought about of not answering... yup i know i am weak... so i messaged "yep"... and then i thought what the hell and told him that he forgot to call and that i am not upset cause i didnt expect it anyways... i really wasnt upset...
yup u guess right... its my fault... i didnt remind him... he is so busy and stressed... and.... yet better...i dared to complain and... i am an idiot... egoistic... everything has to be about me... yup...i couldnt guess how stressed he is and how many problems he has... trying to keep head above water... damn i am a bad woman... i should have felt, guessed, known... that he is having problems... i failed my psychic test... damned :(
yup... today he messaged me again... didnt answer... wonder what would be my fault today...i always told him to talk to me... but he says he doesnt wanna bother me with his shit... since i am no psychic i dont know whats going on... yup... my fault... who could have guessed
otherwise....
i had a good weekend... thank you... the birthdays were great... we will celebrate with andi this saturday...
our soccer team won... 3:2... YEEEEAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!..... almost lost my voice from shouting so much...
everything will be fine
Angie
yesterday he messaged me....oh... he must be at work... night shift... a short " hope u are good and all is well... "
since i wasnt home and i left my phone to charge i saw it quite late... and i took my time answering... even thought about of not answering... yup i know i am weak... so i messaged "yep"... and then i thought what the hell and told him that he forgot to call and that i am not upset cause i didnt expect it anyways... i really wasnt upset...
yup u guess right... its my fault... i didnt remind him... he is so busy and stressed... and.... yet better...i dared to complain and... i am an idiot... egoistic... everything has to be about me... yup...i couldnt guess how stressed he is and how many problems he has... trying to keep head above water... damn i am a bad woman... i should have felt, guessed, known... that he is having problems... i failed my psychic test... damned :(
yup... today he messaged me again... didnt answer... wonder what would be my fault today...i always told him to talk to me... but he says he doesnt wanna bother me with his shit... since i am no psychic i dont know whats going on... yup... my fault... who could have guessed
otherwise....
i had a good weekend... thank you... the birthdays were great... we will celebrate with andi this saturday...
our soccer team won... 3:2... YEEEEAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!..... almost lost my voice from shouting so much...
everything will be fine
Angie
answering your emails....
heya and thanks for the emails that keep flowing in... sorry i dont answer them right away...but they are appreciated...
most of em are to the scott topic... sigh.... ok
you will know who u are... so here we go... short text
yes i still love him... and yeah... there were always more important things... i was easy to hurt cause i am not there... people who were actually there came always first... and yeah i put up with it...
no... i dont wanna talk more about karen... yeah i know it must be interesting for you but i am tired of that topic... she tried but couldnt break us up... it was funny though how she did it... made us laugh a lot...maybe i´ll you the story of "how not to do it"... it was really funny...
although i said i would date... i havent yet... maybe somehow i hoped scott would say no and ask me not to do it... but on the other hand i should have knows he doesnt... he is going quiet and suffers.... another sighhh.....
to this reader... yes i am sure scott was always faithful... i trusted him 100%.. he trusted me too... what happend after our breakup wasnt cheating....
and my point was... still is... how can u start a new relationship if u are still in love with another woman... when it doesnt work out u remember that women and say... i think somebody is trying to tell me something, you are the one?... doesnt that loved woman have a right to ask q?... say whats on her mind?... we didnt break up cause of somebody else or cause we didnt love each other !... a one night stand ... ok... but a new relationship?... and this is the last time i said this...
to Lexy... thank you and i will be ok...
thanks to all the people who care...
everything will be fine
ange
most of em are to the scott topic... sigh.... ok
you will know who u are... so here we go... short text
yes i still love him... and yeah... there were always more important things... i was easy to hurt cause i am not there... people who were actually there came always first... and yeah i put up with it...
no... i dont wanna talk more about karen... yeah i know it must be interesting for you but i am tired of that topic... she tried but couldnt break us up... it was funny though how she did it... made us laugh a lot...maybe i´ll you the story of "how not to do it"... it was really funny...
although i said i would date... i havent yet... maybe somehow i hoped scott would say no and ask me not to do it... but on the other hand i should have knows he doesnt... he is going quiet and suffers.... another sighhh.....
to this reader... yes i am sure scott was always faithful... i trusted him 100%.. he trusted me too... what happend after our breakup wasnt cheating....
and my point was... still is... how can u start a new relationship if u are still in love with another woman... when it doesnt work out u remember that women and say... i think somebody is trying to tell me something, you are the one?... doesnt that loved woman have a right to ask q?... say whats on her mind?... we didnt break up cause of somebody else or cause we didnt love each other !... a one night stand ... ok... but a new relationship?... and this is the last time i said this...
to Lexy... thank you and i will be ok...
thanks to all the people who care...
everything will be fine
ange
time...
time: early morning? huh?
drinking: coffee
wearing: top and panties
listening to: sunrise avenue "heal me"
i am glad that: there was a last coffee capsule left
last cried: so emotional lately...
last talked on phone to: Andi my cutie pie
today i have to: mowe the lawn... sighhhh 2 hours
i am happy that: i saw sabines happy face yesterday when she opend her present
i miss: someone to hold me
i am sad that: scott forgot about me again... or not yet... lets give him a chance
i smiled when: i saw teenas sms yesterday... but too tired to answer it...thank you
drinking: coffee
wearing: top and panties
listening to: sunrise avenue "heal me"
i am glad that: there was a last coffee capsule left
last cried: so emotional lately...
last talked on phone to: Andi my cutie pie
today i have to: mowe the lawn... sighhhh 2 hours
i am happy that: i saw sabines happy face yesterday when she opend her present
i miss: someone to hold me
i am sad that: scott forgot about me again... or not yet... lets give him a chance
i smiled when: i saw teenas sms yesterday... but too tired to answer it...thank you
Fortune cookie
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heal me...
This is something I can't hide
Can't throw it away
This is something I can't fake
They know you're away
They know how to break me
They know you're far away
If this sadness takes its place
I'll free the space it needs
I'm hiding in the place
Where we share the days
Where we share the nights
Go through dark and light
Could you believe I'm waiting for someone
Could you believe I'm holding the night with my hands
Alone in the night on my own
I feel the pain inside me
Only you can heal me
This is something I can't take
I feel so lame
There is nothing in my mind
But you all the way
You rule every moment
You're the air around me
Love's a lonely road sometimes
I keep moving on
Towards the moment you'll be mine
A long way to go To where we belong
We'll be there before long
By sharing this moonlight
And the tears in my midnight cry
I need to hear you breathe by Me in the night,
deep in the night
Can't throw it away
This is something I can't fake
They know you're away
They know how to break me
They know you're far away
If this sadness takes its place
I'll free the space it needs
I'm hiding in the place
Where we share the days
Where we share the nights
Go through dark and light
Could you believe I'm waiting for someone
Could you believe I'm holding the night with my hands
Alone in the night on my own
I feel the pain inside me
Only you can heal me
This is something I can't take
I feel so lame
There is nothing in my mind
But you all the way
You rule every moment
You're the air around me
Love's a lonely road sometimes
I keep moving on
Towards the moment you'll be mine
A long way to go To where we belong
We'll be there before long
By sharing this moonlight
And the tears in my midnight cry
I need to hear you breathe by Me in the night,
deep in the night
its like this and that...
here we go again... another day...woke up tired... draggin myself through the day... at least
its a sunny day here... last days of summer... school starts soon... julia is growing up so fast...
hard for me to follow... she is a young lady now... but i dont feel old... new things wait ahead for her to discover...
i was so pissed off at a friend the last days... i was so emotional... she is a moody person... changes from one sec to the other... we have to deal with them... she is egoistic and puts herself always first... so i dont know ... was i pissed off cause i am not like that?... i wished i could be like that sometimes... but sabine said "its not us ange"... yeah i know... but where does nice get you?...
i asked that scott too... to where did nice and understanding bring me with him?... yeapehh... its true that the bitches get the nice guys... and we?... the funny thing i couldnt even do it...yeah its true... i am not like that...
so sabine and me wait for a guy who will love us for the women we are...
anybody out there? wants a nice female? sabine is having a hard time... she was so vulnerable and this idiot played her... and now wants to be friends... yeah right... we go through all this to be friends...
i wish i could understand why and how i feel the way i do about scott...i start to feel the same way as him... we need to meet and find out if its really meant to be...then end it or go on...
i feel trapped... hurt by the things he does or doesnt do... things he says or doesnt say...right now its the things he doesnt do or say... hurts a lot... i wanna be free...
its easy to jump into a new relationship... but its not what i want...having sex? easy... but worth it?...
its a sunny day here... last days of summer... school starts soon... julia is growing up so fast...
hard for me to follow... she is a young lady now... but i dont feel old... new things wait ahead for her to discover...
i was so pissed off at a friend the last days... i was so emotional... she is a moody person... changes from one sec to the other... we have to deal with them... she is egoistic and puts herself always first... so i dont know ... was i pissed off cause i am not like that?... i wished i could be like that sometimes... but sabine said "its not us ange"... yeah i know... but where does nice get you?...
i asked that scott too... to where did nice and understanding bring me with him?... yeapehh... its true that the bitches get the nice guys... and we?... the funny thing i couldnt even do it...yeah its true... i am not like that...
so sabine and me wait for a guy who will love us for the women we are...
anybody out there? wants a nice female? sabine is having a hard time... she was so vulnerable and this idiot played her... and now wants to be friends... yeah right... we go through all this to be friends...
i wish i could understand why and how i feel the way i do about scott...i start to feel the same way as him... we need to meet and find out if its really meant to be...then end it or go on...
i feel trapped... hurt by the things he does or doesnt do... things he says or doesnt say...right now its the things he doesnt do or say... hurts a lot... i wanna be free...
its easy to jump into a new relationship... but its not what i want...having sex? easy... but worth it?...
happy birthday....
Happy Birthday !!!
I hope you feel deep in your heart,
I’m wishing you another year
Of laughter, joy and fun,
Surprises, love and happiness
And when your birthday’s done,
I hope you feel deep in your heart,
As your birthdays come and go,
How very much you mean to me,
More than you can know!
This special bday pic if for the both of you... he he he
i love you !
mwah
hey...
hey ya all... everything is going fine over here... just so tired lately... even sabine told me to go see a doctor... well i guess my red blood cells are not doing well again... i´ll go see one soon...
2 birthdays coming up... tomorrow sabines and then saturday is andis...lots of celebration coming our way... yes i promise i will behave... my love life still the same...
i feel trapped... i asked scott a few days ago to give me a call on his free upcoming days cause i wanted to have a talk with him... the same moment i knew he will forget it... why do i even bother... he´ll have an excuse and i´ll be upset cause he forgot... sigh....
sorry not so very interesting here right now... feel out of energy and so tired... dont even know what to post...
2 birthdays coming up... tomorrow sabines and then saturday is andis...lots of celebration coming our way... yes i promise i will behave... my love life still the same...
i feel trapped... i asked scott a few days ago to give me a call on his free upcoming days cause i wanted to have a talk with him... the same moment i knew he will forget it... why do i even bother... he´ll have an excuse and i´ll be upset cause he forgot... sigh....
sorry not so very interesting here right now... feel out of energy and so tired... dont even know what to post...
TGIF...
yeahhh...... thank god its friday..... woke up... rainy day.... but it will be ok... doing housework today...cook good lunch... hang out with friends... and looking forward to the weekend...
going to watch soccer tomorrow... maybe go out saturday night...even though i have told scott i am gonna date again... well how can i put it... i dont wanna spend my time building something with a man right now...
somehow there is still scott...sigh....
everything will be fine
ange
going to watch soccer tomorrow... maybe go out saturday night...even though i have told scott i am gonna date again... well how can i put it... i dont wanna spend my time building something with a man right now...
somehow there is still scott...sigh....
everything will be fine
ange
I feel like...
Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around
That you were gonna make me cry
It's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find...
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around !
Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
Comes I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Can you tell me is this fair?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around
That you were gonna make me cry
It's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find...
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around !
Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
Comes I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Can you tell me is this fair?
wohohoho....
wtf did here happen??? i am gone for a bit and you people gone mad here? ... is that topic so hot??? or mrs texas showed her personality again?... and i missed it all...
well thank you pj for being there... i trust you... and you people leave him alone... get a life...
to scott.... since you all are so crazy about this topic...
he still thinks he hasnt done anything wrong... well he hasnt... we broke up... yeah...
but a one night stand is still something different than wanting a relationship... him and me have different opinions there... but i am done with it... OVER!!!!!!
we are all doing ok.... went to see a soccer game today and to the pool... enjoying the last days
of summer...
sabines and andis b-day coming up... looking forward to celebrate with them....
and i decided that i start to date again... its time... yeahawwww.....
everything will be fine
Angie
well thank you pj for being there... i trust you... and you people leave him alone... get a life...
to scott.... since you all are so crazy about this topic...
he still thinks he hasnt done anything wrong... well he hasnt... we broke up... yeah...
but a one night stand is still something different than wanting a relationship... him and me have different opinions there... but i am done with it... OVER!!!!!!
we are all doing ok.... went to see a soccer game today and to the pool... enjoying the last days
of summer...
sabines and andis b-day coming up... looking forward to celebrate with them....
and i decided that i start to date again... its time... yeahawwww.....
everything will be fine
Angie
one more reminder
i'll say this once again, everyone please behave like mature adults or i shut eryone out. if you need to say your piece go get your own blog. you can be sure i wont be there because i dont give a fuck what you guys hafta say because i dont give a fuck who you are as well.. i really dont give a fuck what you guys are to angie too. you dont mean none the fuck to me all the same. this happens to be her blog and yes i dont give a fuck about freedom of speech as long as i'm free to say what i wanna. oh yeah. thank you.
my day...
my day... started ok but then got messy....somehow he always turns things around to
make me feel guilty... but not this time...
teena messaged me in the morning asking if i was ok cause she read my last entry...
that was nice of her... thank you teena... i am doing ok... i am not sad... was just so upset
when i wrote that...
then i sent Scott a last goodbye message... saying final good bye... he messaged back that it was
unfair what i did... slagged him ... i am so sorry.... i didnt wanna start a fight and i said i am sorry and i would take it out but it would be goodbye...
so a sms conversation started... not nice for me...
it seems i have issues cause i cant let go of what happend.... he said i keep bringing up what he tries to forget....
ladies.... LADIES... and of course gents....
REALITY CHECK PLEASE !!!
he breaks up... its not a bad break up... we still love each other... we cant handle the distance... ok... we take a break... he has a one night stand.... hard but i can accept that... he needed it and i understand that... a one night stand is ok.... but then...
he said he wanted to have a relationship with a girl... she said No ... and he had the feeling he should have never left me...
Now...yes ladies i had the nerve to question him... to question what he did... he tells me i am making a drama out of it... WTF... Am i so wrong?....
no please... am i wrong?... should i shut up... be happy he wants me back and go on??? just because he doesnt want to talk about it???
he says i am complaining and i am jealous... HELLOOO!!!!
a one night stand is something but starting a relationship is totally different ballgame...
i asked him to make me understand... he wouldnt....so.....
please mail me and let me know... or leave a comment... am i being unfair? am i wrong?
dont be afraid to tell me what u think...
everything will be fine....
Angie
make me feel guilty... but not this time...
teena messaged me in the morning asking if i was ok cause she read my last entry...
that was nice of her... thank you teena... i am doing ok... i am not sad... was just so upset
when i wrote that...
then i sent Scott a last goodbye message... saying final good bye... he messaged back that it was
unfair what i did... slagged him ... i am so sorry.... i didnt wanna start a fight and i said i am sorry and i would take it out but it would be goodbye...
so a sms conversation started... not nice for me...
it seems i have issues cause i cant let go of what happend.... he said i keep bringing up what he tries to forget....
ladies.... LADIES... and of course gents....
REALITY CHECK PLEASE !!!
he breaks up... its not a bad break up... we still love each other... we cant handle the distance... ok... we take a break... he has a one night stand.... hard but i can accept that... he needed it and i understand that... a one night stand is ok.... but then...
he said he wanted to have a relationship with a girl... she said No ... and he had the feeling he should have never left me...
Now...yes ladies i had the nerve to question him... to question what he did... he tells me i am making a drama out of it... WTF... Am i so wrong?....
no please... am i wrong?... should i shut up... be happy he wants me back and go on??? just because he doesnt want to talk about it???
he says i am complaining and i am jealous... HELLOOO!!!!
a one night stand is something but starting a relationship is totally different ballgame...
i asked him to make me understand... he wouldnt....so.....
please mail me and let me know... or leave a comment... am i being unfair? am i wrong?
dont be afraid to tell me what u think...
everything will be fine....
Angie
Done...
i am done... done ... done done done... i dont want to do this anymore... i held on as long as i could... but now its just enough... he has overdone it... i tried to be my best... giving him always a chance... but today i just felt its enough... i feel empty... i just wanted to get out... he tells me i wanna control everything and i am complaining all the time...
guess what... he is so lucky he is so far away... i wanted to slap him...he is free...no more control and no more complaining.... i am nothing of that...i was so pissed...still am.... SO PISSED!!!!!!!! and i dont mean drunk... what more??? tell me what???....
he is a free man... he can do whatever he wants to with whoever he wants... i dont care anymore.. i am not sad just upset..
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guess what... he is so lucky he is so far away... i wanted to slap him...he is free...no more control and no more complaining.... i am nothing of that...i was so pissed...still am.... SO PISSED!!!!!!!! and i dont mean drunk... what more??? tell me what???....
he is a free man... he can do whatever he wants to with whoever he wants... i dont care anymore.. i am not sad just upset..
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the other girl...
so we broke up... and we were battling being alone... he told me a while ago he was hoping to start a serious relationship with another girl.. kristine... i was shocked... really shocked... i didnt understand... i still dont understand...
he wanted to make it serious with her but she went back to her ex... then he suddenly rememberd me?... he said he thinks he made a big mistake and he wished he could have me back?... hello !!!!!!!!!! reality check!!!!!!!!!!!
what is this? ... where were his feelings for me when he was with this girl?... turned off?... i still dont understand that he freaks out now when i try to talk about it...
even yesterday... i told him i dont understand... he said i would always bring up yesterdays things and i should leave it alone... HELLO????????
now he expects me to be quiet about it?...
i cant say anything?...
in what world does he live in?... i have to swallow all this and i cant talk with him about it?
then this daniel story... that he emailed her and wanted to humiliate her...
so nice to have a brother who loves you so much ... this just doesnt feel right...
i have a right to talk about it with him... do you hear that????
I HAVE A RIGHT TO TALK WITH YOU ABOUT IT!
damned....DAMNED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
he wanted to make it serious with her but she went back to her ex... then he suddenly rememberd me?... he said he thinks he made a big mistake and he wished he could have me back?... hello !!!!!!!!!! reality check!!!!!!!!!!!
what is this? ... where were his feelings for me when he was with this girl?... turned off?... i still dont understand that he freaks out now when i try to talk about it...
even yesterday... i told him i dont understand... he said i would always bring up yesterdays things and i should leave it alone... HELLO????????
now he expects me to be quiet about it?...
i cant say anything?...
in what world does he live in?... i have to swallow all this and i cant talk with him about it?
then this daniel story... that he emailed her and wanted to humiliate her...
so nice to have a brother who loves you so much ... this just doesnt feel right...
i have a right to talk about it with him... do you hear that????
I HAVE A RIGHT TO TALK WITH YOU ABOUT IT!
damned....DAMNED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
big boobs...
big boobs... always had them... not fake ones... the ones god gave me... but now they become a burden... i have so much shoulder and neck pain...every day... i wanna have a breast reduction... real bad...
scott is sad... he wants em big... but i cant look out for his feelings or wantings... i am in pain... and i want them smaller...he asked what he can do for me to keep them... what??? nothing... now he accepted it...
scott is sad... he wants em big... but i cant look out for his feelings or wantings... i am in pain... and i want them smaller...he asked what he can do for me to keep them... what??? nothing... now he accepted it...
ok ok....
ok ok...u buggin me cause of Karen... i know i gotta finish the story.. ok... i cant remember how i ended my last karen post... didnt know you were so interested in this story...
so... i met this cute guy... madness... an aussie bloke... we had a lot of fun online... we grew to be close friends... we talked about quite a bit... but he forgot to mention karen... i had no idea... i knew his brothers and he took me to that chatroom but i instantly got bombed out... i had no idea at that time that it was karen... scott never told me...
he let me believe everything is ok...we messaged each other when we were about to go on to talk to... we were very comfortable with each other...we started a close friendship... everything was going fine....
i thought... till that day when i went to his room and i got slaughtered...i had no idea... can you imagine ?... no you cant... i couldnt either... i went in there and they attacked me... why? i didnt know... she said scott is her man and i should stop stalking him !!... i couldnt understand... me stalking him?... i was so confused... i asked scott to tell me what is going on... but he was quiet...he watched them cussing at me... saying things that were untrue... i didnt understand and i left...
i was devastated... i cried and called him on the phone... he didnt answer.. i tried to message him...he didnt answer... all i wanted to know was why? WHY?
was i so wrong? ... he played me all this time?... how could he tell them i was stalking him?...
i was so down and i couldnt believe it... i had to think he was lying to me... all the things he said... the promises he made... i opend up and i got hurt... my own fault i guess...
i had people there to catch me... even scotts own bro brendon was there for me... we kept contact and he cheered me up... we did it behind scotts back... i didnt want scott to know i was talking to brendon...
i never got hurt like this... even brendon couldnt explain... so i thought ok... karen gives him what he wants and needs and i am not the one...
till the day...
we started talking behind karens back...he couldnt explain why he did what he did... i still couldnt understand....
we agreed to be friends.... we kept contact... not online anymore...
about 2,5 years ago our contact got closer... he decided to win my heart back... i wasnt ready...
i couldnt forget what he did...
he explained... he told them i was stalking him to protect me from them... he was scared they would hurt me... WTF!!! how could that protect me??
he didnt know why karen got a hold of him... he wanted to protect what we had and paniked... gosh
i was the only one that was hurt...
yeah he lost me but i guess he wasnt too serious being with me...
so... he worked hard...
did a lot of talking...
did lot of loving...
he showed his true self...
i always knew was there
he is such a wonderful father... i fell in love with a wonderful man called scott missen...
he showed me who he really was... and it worked...
yup... guess thats the story... i made it quick and without too many details...
so... i met this cute guy... madness... an aussie bloke... we had a lot of fun online... we grew to be close friends... we talked about quite a bit... but he forgot to mention karen... i had no idea... i knew his brothers and he took me to that chatroom but i instantly got bombed out... i had no idea at that time that it was karen... scott never told me...
he let me believe everything is ok...we messaged each other when we were about to go on to talk to... we were very comfortable with each other...we started a close friendship... everything was going fine....
i thought... till that day when i went to his room and i got slaughtered...i had no idea... can you imagine ?... no you cant... i couldnt either... i went in there and they attacked me... why? i didnt know... she said scott is her man and i should stop stalking him !!... i couldnt understand... me stalking him?... i was so confused... i asked scott to tell me what is going on... but he was quiet...he watched them cussing at me... saying things that were untrue... i didnt understand and i left...
i was devastated... i cried and called him on the phone... he didnt answer.. i tried to message him...he didnt answer... all i wanted to know was why? WHY?
was i so wrong? ... he played me all this time?... how could he tell them i was stalking him?...
i was so down and i couldnt believe it... i had to think he was lying to me... all the things he said... the promises he made... i opend up and i got hurt... my own fault i guess...
i had people there to catch me... even scotts own bro brendon was there for me... we kept contact and he cheered me up... we did it behind scotts back... i didnt want scott to know i was talking to brendon...
i never got hurt like this... even brendon couldnt explain... so i thought ok... karen gives him what he wants and needs and i am not the one...
till the day...
we started talking behind karens back...he couldnt explain why he did what he did... i still couldnt understand....
we agreed to be friends.... we kept contact... not online anymore...
about 2,5 years ago our contact got closer... he decided to win my heart back... i wasnt ready...
i couldnt forget what he did...
he explained... he told them i was stalking him to protect me from them... he was scared they would hurt me... WTF!!! how could that protect me??
he didnt know why karen got a hold of him... he wanted to protect what we had and paniked... gosh
i was the only one that was hurt...
yeah he lost me but i guess he wasnt too serious being with me...
so... he worked hard...
did a lot of talking...
did lot of loving...
he showed his true self...
i always knew was there
he is such a wonderful father... i fell in love with a wonderful man called scott missen...
he showed me who he really was... and it worked...
yup... guess thats the story... i made it quick and without too many details...
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