Reality check........

what the hell is wrong with me???? i am so ugghhhh lately..... fight with B.... and i know he is right....it started out of something stupid but he brought so much other things in i knew would come up sometimes.... yeah why cant i commit to him???....what more do u need?... a guy that loves and adores u... was beside u through that Scott shit and stayed and now???....flowers... romance....gifts....making love....feeling loved.......would somebody kick my butt please???



met another guy who is totally different than B... how could i ever let somebody else get to me?... but did he get to me yet? i am seeing all these signs....depressed.... wanting to end life at once cause of broken heart.... ring a bell?... is sensitive and needs a stronger partner......ding ding???....loves kids.......ding ding ding.....is romantic and would say all the things u need to hear........ding ding ding diiiiiiiiiiiiiiing....so what the hell is wrong with me??? can somebody tell me?
What more can B do for me than he already did? uh i love u more than u love me... yeah right i heard that before..........i need a reality check....badly...........

what is wrong with me.......feel empty and powerless.....:(

Fady my sweet little cupcake......

i could just look at him for hours lol......don´t get me wrong Thomas is a sexy creampie too... but Fady....sigh.... i don´t pay attention to his voice....it´s nice but i like Toms voice better....but he can be so wonderfully cheesy and romantic....and he is yummy to look at....i wish he would sing a german song for once.... he has this wonderful french accent and its sooooooo cute...3 more days to go and its showtime again........

here he sings a song that is so errrrr .....bad in original....but he mastered it good and it brought him into the next show.....

couldn´t u just eat him up? ........

First of all.........

First of all..........Benni is out!!!!!! Benni is out......Benni is out!!!!!!! ( actually dancing and singing ) BENNI IS FINALLY OUTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!
ok ok...feeling better now....

Thomas was sexy and grrrr like ever.........and Fady.......oh yummy Fady....had such a crappy song but was so sexy.........his smile....lips....ahm oh yeah.... am back....sorry!

in the end monica and benni stood there.....we all thought monica had to go cause benni always had many teenies who called in for him.... they ran out of phone money? or what ever.....he is OUT.... it was about 11:30pm when all 5 of us jumped up and danced and yelled out loud..... to celebrate that we opened one more bottle lol

so this saturday Fady sings Rick Astley.......never gonna give u up..... love it....brings back so many memories......... thomas sings limp bizkit... behind blue eyes.......... grrrrrrr sexy sexy...... so u all know what i am doing on saturday nights lol

Seif!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i dont wanna be an old couple...... find ya words again damned lol

everything will be fine
Angie

ya ya friday la di da....

la di di la di da.......... it´s TGIF.......la la la if i lay here.......lad di di .......(dancing around)..... will u lay next to me......... la la la........oh not good ....headache........lol
so.....that means tomorrow is saturday.....and that means......THOMAS!

singing a Linkin park song... forgot the title......SABINEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! she is our Thomas dictionary and news letter lol

today we are going to the theater.... am so looking forward seeing herbert up there.... he always cracks me up...... hope Andi will like it too... he complained about me taking another guy instead of him last time.......well......here we go.....ur turn Andi! lol

am still feeling sick...

Seif keeps asking me why.... oh well i cant say that here but seif........ i don´t know? my magic? lol


everything will be fine

have an awesome weekend

Angie

Daniel.....

Daniel.... know him since a few years now... a funny charming guy.... intelligent and always makes me laugh.... he is sleepless lately.......lucky me so i get to talk to him more since we have some time difference between us........

poke*poke*poke*poke* ...........lol

so he sent me a few funny links.........always a pleasure being sleepless with ya daniel! beso

www.despair.com

Children...

so i had a nice talk with Lynda...hope ur hand is better !... didn´t speak to her in a while so i thought i ask her how she and her family are doing.... we ended up talking about religious beliefs and our kids....
she told me about her 15 year old who has the same gf since 4 (?) years... i was really impressed.... she did raise him well... usually kids that age fall in love weekly if not daily....

so i thought to myself i hope that julia gets that lucky too.... it´s so hard letting go... u want to protect them sooooooooo much.... u don´t want them to get hurt... u raise em and hope they do fine out there.... a solid foundation is so important.... i learned that early and gave that to julia too... from now on i can just hope for the best and trust my child .... but there are so many influences out there... always when i see young people behaving bad i think they cant come all from a bad home!!!!


Everything will be fine
Angie

Godojism!!!!!!!!!!

Fady on top and Thomas!

So..... another week has passed and we sat infront of the telly awaiting to be thomanised.... this show was strange..... Monika did good.... Collins was doing ok too...... Thomas...... oh wow... strong voice... beginning was good but when he walked over to his mom and reached out a hand to her he forgot some lyrics.... u would forgive him in an instant.... the second time u could hear that his voice is going bad... he had been sick.... but.... we knew the channel would call him upfront to have more drama.......

but the one we really wanted out is Benny.... gosh that kid is annoying... he bugs me so much.... he has no balls at all..... grrrrr big mouth...... he sang "wake me up before u go go " from Wham!!!!!...... Sabine told me that real slow and easy this week knowing i was a huge wham/george michael fan...... gosh i felt so bad..... i even dreamt that i visited george and told him to forbid benny to sing it lol.... yeah we live with our guys..... fady was cute as ever... his voice is not too strong but i cant stop looking at him... cant u just wanna cuddle with him...... sigh

We all wanted Benny out but collins had to go.... too bad!

Bohlen sucked and he frustrated me!

we drank and now i go to sleep:P

Everything will be fine

Ange

U should be flattered!!

Flattered?? Me??... so i talked to an ex love... and i was curious how things are with him... how is life? work? ur gf?... he asks... do u still wear sexy laungerie?... uhm... well... yeah i do?... so... how is ur new job?.... i thought about u a lot and getting... well u know.... uhm... ok.... live with ur gf?.... i have so many nice memories angie... do u remember when we??? UHM YEAH?? what??... so i ask.... is that all u remember about me? sex? being horny? satisfaction? passion?... well... U SHOULD BE FLATTERED ANGE ! ..........uhhhhhhhhhhh yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... oh thank god... yeah i should .. shouldnt I? i meet up with him in a few weeks.... ya flattered!

Thomas ...Thomas.... Thomas !!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh sigh...... I love his voice! i really do.... i don´t usually watch those casting shows but through julia i always had a peek... and now... i have a fave... Thomas !!! well Fady isnt bad either... grrr sweet choclate... but the voice of Thomas is just soothing.... when i heard him sing a song of Sunrise Avenue he got me... yeah i admit i even called and voted for him... now on saturday we will sit again in front of the telly and watch him sing a Take that song... really looking forward to it... i wanna share a song he sang on the first show with u... it´s german but i´ll bet u like it.... STRONG...

Und du glaubst ich bin stark und ich kenn den Weg
Du bildest dir ein, ich weiß wie alles geht
Du denkst ich hab alles im Griff
Und kontrollier' was geschieht
Aber ich steh nur hier oben und sing mein Lied!!

and u think i am strong and i know my way...

please take a look....

please take a look... watch this ... don´t look away... it´s happening... we have to fight it... our society... we... you... moms be strong... put the well being of ur kids above everything else... no man is worth losing ur child! ... how can u turn away and let this happen??? it´s such a touching story that made me cry... let us not turn away!

This will have you in tears - but it is a must see. If you have a heart, PLEASE take the time to watch this clip, and think about ways that you can take action to prevent child abuse.

we must spread awareness to stop child abuse, our children need our protection.

What was that again?

uuhhhh... all day i get ideas what to blog but then i forget to write them down and now i sit here and... blank... hmmm

well.... ok...

somebody asked me if him and me could encourage each other to lose 5kg so we both would look hotter ( and NO it wasn´t B)... WTF? never ever has a guy asked me that... what makes u so sure u would be the first and survive it? a friendship is all we share ! gosh... in todays society it´s so hard for girls to grow up... i would just lose weight if i want or my doctor tells me so... but a guy? NO !

B never asked me... he loves me the way i am! maybe i should really give him a yes??

arghhh now a funny thing that i just remembered... my ex hubby asked me last week if i believe in reading out of hands... what does the future hold for u? lol... well... i said i don´t ... and he told me a friend or whoever did that to him and told him he will get a problem with his ex wife? ME? really? wow ok... i was laughing so hard... and then he said he will have a problem with my bf... blonde, blue eyes and a good job!!!! YES YES YES LOL... now all i need is name? address? location? lol so freaking funny....

Julia got a 2+ in her math exam...missed a 1 by just 1 point... so proud of her!

me ... i am tired , tired, tired... have a doc appointment tomorrow but probably no time to go there sigh.... lost too much blood i guess... feeling weak lately

so... i gotta... finish work, reading mails, call B! get some TLC?

Aims.... hope u feel better soon! hugs girl!

Everything will be fine
Angie

Miserable...

hey ya all... long time no see :P
went to see our boys play on sunday... wahhh miserable game... i was so dissapointed... they lost 0:3.... wasted time... although the weather was nice i felt i should be home sleeping lol ... at least B surprised me that evening... was so wonderful to see him again... it´s much more better than just hearing him on the phone... he is doing well and is satisfied with his game... we spent some nice time together and i didn´t wanna let him go... sigh

Everything will be fine
Ange