sitting: balcony
drinking: water
talked last on phone 2: Manfred
2day: my sis came 2 visit- i have to learn 2 love her more and dont just see the negative stuff-
i´m all she got
listening 2: miss J.Lo and No Angels ( there´s no angel inside of me-its all in your mind...what
u get boy aint what u see...aint that a surprise!)
i miss: Scott
i think about: Sabine and Deniz-hoping the surgery goes well
song on my mind: No Angels-Washes over me
... when the river of regret rushes past ur door will u give me just a thought and wish u
loved me more, well forgive me if i dream dote on memories but sometimes what might
have been washes over me... the colour of my lips after kissing u all night my hair was such
a mess by the time the morning came u held it up my neck, said u liked it best that way...
what might have been if she hadnt caught ur eye, wud i be the one u never leave, would
grow old by ur side?
can´t get rid of: Scott words-him talking about dating and i didn´t have a clue!!!!
Ever heard about people being meant for each other?
I always thought: yeah yeah bla bla. But. It caught me. I can´t escape Mr. Scott Missen. I have to admit he got my heart, my soul, my body - I am his. I never thought this could happen. Especially with this man. I loved him, i hated him, i tried to forget about him, i cried, at times i wished i would have never met him. I was in other relationships.
He found his way back into my life. When i realized-we were already friends again. But i didnt take him seriously. Him being so far away i kept him at distance. We decided to be friends.
Better than than nothing. He was in a relationship. Then dating. I never minded. He lived together with his gf. I had no problem with it.
Now, july 29th 2005 he tells me he´s been on a few dates with a girl. My heart stopped beating, i was scared, shocked feelings i never wanted to feel again. I was plain jealous. I dont wanna think about him with someone else. Going out, having fun, laughing. It bothers me. I wanna scream.
How did he do it????
How did he get me into this condition??
I said: Let´s be friends- he stole my heart- once again.
I know of his good and bad sides. I accept his weaknesses. He was leaving it up to me.
- Angie, you decide if u trust me again, all i know is that i love u-
oh well oh well. All i know is that this man has come back to my life and swept me away.
And he is here to stay.
oh well readers, we have opend a new chapter. We began a new story. Let´s see. I am jumping abord. Australia here i come. An austrian in australia. Yeahaaaaa.
Mr. Missen i love u
I always thought: yeah yeah bla bla. But. It caught me. I can´t escape Mr. Scott Missen. I have to admit he got my heart, my soul, my body - I am his. I never thought this could happen. Especially with this man. I loved him, i hated him, i tried to forget about him, i cried, at times i wished i would have never met him. I was in other relationships.
He found his way back into my life. When i realized-we were already friends again. But i didnt take him seriously. Him being so far away i kept him at distance. We decided to be friends.
Better than than nothing. He was in a relationship. Then dating. I never minded. He lived together with his gf. I had no problem with it.
Now, july 29th 2005 he tells me he´s been on a few dates with a girl. My heart stopped beating, i was scared, shocked feelings i never wanted to feel again. I was plain jealous. I dont wanna think about him with someone else. Going out, having fun, laughing. It bothers me. I wanna scream.
How did he do it????
How did he get me into this condition??
I said: Let´s be friends- he stole my heart- once again.
I know of his good and bad sides. I accept his weaknesses. He was leaving it up to me.
- Angie, you decide if u trust me again, all i know is that i love u-
oh well oh well. All i know is that this man has come back to my life and swept me away.
And he is here to stay.
oh well readers, we have opend a new chapter. We began a new story. Let´s see. I am jumping abord. Australia here i come. An austrian in australia. Yeahaaaaa.
Mr. Missen i love u
yieeeehaaaaa!
here i am again. was a beautiful day. we had much fun. it was sunny. i talked to scotty who had to work ( nah nah nah nah nah). sorry. i do miss u baby.
for the record. scotty and me are not a couple. NO. i am not saying we wont be in future. but we are not so naive to pretend something. we are best friends. i am just single again and pheww it was hard between 2 men. i ended it. but...scotty is still there. and he will be. i love him dearly and accept all his moods and bad sides too. he saw mine already. thank god he still talks to me. he hangs in there. and i am proud that we didnt rush into something. we are handling it pretty good i think. sheeze i had too much sun. hope i dont sound too confuse.
i am glad i talked to pj!!! he is still the same. at least on the phone with me. glad he is in my life. even though he is far away.
my political life is going well. tiring, boring but sometimes fun. uhh.
had a romantic date with andreas. was wonderful but the wrong guy. he is so sweet and i am proud to be his best friend. we talked forever and ever and late at night went home. we gave the stars new names. well we didnt know what we were looking at. drank wine and were scared of the noises in the forest. hope he gets a nice girl one day. he really deserves it.
julia had her second concert and she was fab again. summer vacation starts soon. we´ll be in vienna and 2 weeks at a beach somewhere. i am so proud of her. although its not cool to hang with me anymore. sighhhhh. i am not cool to her. oh well. a mothers destiny.
here i am again. was a beautiful day. we had much fun. it was sunny. i talked to scotty who had to work ( nah nah nah nah nah). sorry. i do miss u baby.
for the record. scotty and me are not a couple. NO. i am not saying we wont be in future. but we are not so naive to pretend something. we are best friends. i am just single again and pheww it was hard between 2 men. i ended it. but...scotty is still there. and he will be. i love him dearly and accept all his moods and bad sides too. he saw mine already. thank god he still talks to me. he hangs in there. and i am proud that we didnt rush into something. we are handling it pretty good i think. sheeze i had too much sun. hope i dont sound too confuse.
i am glad i talked to pj!!! he is still the same. at least on the phone with me. glad he is in my life. even though he is far away.
my political life is going well. tiring, boring but sometimes fun. uhh.
had a romantic date with andreas. was wonderful but the wrong guy. he is so sweet and i am proud to be his best friend. we talked forever and ever and late at night went home. we gave the stars new names. well we didnt know what we were looking at. drank wine and were scared of the noises in the forest. hope he gets a nice girl one day. he really deserves it.
julia had her second concert and she was fab again. summer vacation starts soon. we´ll be in vienna and 2 weeks at a beach somewhere. i am so proud of her. although its not cool to hang with me anymore. sighhhhh. i am not cool to her. oh well. a mothers destiny.
wooohooooo
finally found the lyrics to one of my fave songs. yahhhhh
www.connick.com
Recipe For Love
A little bit of me and a whole lot of you
Add a dash of starlight and a dozen roses, too
Then let it rise for a hundred years or two
And that's the recipe for making love
It doesn't need sugar 'cause it's already sweet
It doesn't need an oven 'cause it's got a lot of heat
Just add a dash of kisses to make it all complete
And that's the recipe for making love
And if you've made it right you'll know it
It's not like anything you've made before
And if you've made it wrong you'll know it
'Cause it won't keep you coming back for more
I didn't get it from my grandma's book upon the shelf
I didn't get it from a magical and culinary elf
No, a little birdie told me you can't make it by yourself
And that's the recipe for making love
just totally love this song. i am singing it to julia all the time. also the other great one from that album "we are in love". yup. she is beggin me to stop but i just love to sing that song to her. especially when we are taking a bubble bath. she loves her mummy!!!!
finally found the lyrics to one of my fave songs. yahhhhh
www.connick.com
Recipe For Love
A little bit of me and a whole lot of you
Add a dash of starlight and a dozen roses, too
Then let it rise for a hundred years or two
And that's the recipe for making love
It doesn't need sugar 'cause it's already sweet
It doesn't need an oven 'cause it's got a lot of heat
Just add a dash of kisses to make it all complete
And that's the recipe for making love
And if you've made it right you'll know it
It's not like anything you've made before
And if you've made it wrong you'll know it
'Cause it won't keep you coming back for more
I didn't get it from my grandma's book upon the shelf
I didn't get it from a magical and culinary elf
No, a little birdie told me you can't make it by yourself
And that's the recipe for making love
just totally love this song. i am singing it to julia all the time. also the other great one from that album "we are in love". yup. she is beggin me to stop but i just love to sing that song to her. especially when we are taking a bubble bath. she loves her mummy!!!!
hello again!!!!
just jumped into the "blue" website. duncan is so hot. grrrrrrrr. yahhh he is a cutie. and yes i admit it. i love the music of blue. yap. i have bought the cd and i already have 2 blue dvd. i can still blame it on julia. lol. well now not anymore. she is more into lee.
www.officialblue.co.uk
go and explore.
" cruel to the eye
i see the way he makes u smile
cruel to the eye
watching him hold what used to be mine....."
sounds familiar scott? uhhh i am naughty. sowwy. soooorrryyyyyy. oh man i can be a bitch sometimes but then i remember being a bitch can be very positive. lets see if i can remember right.
b - beautiful
i - individuum
t - that
c - causes
h - hardons
yup girls. being a bitch is not so bad.
just jumped into the "blue" website. duncan is so hot. grrrrrrrr. yahhh he is a cutie. and yes i admit it. i love the music of blue. yap. i have bought the cd and i already have 2 blue dvd. i can still blame it on julia. lol. well now not anymore. she is more into lee.
www.officialblue.co.uk
go and explore.
" cruel to the eye
i see the way he makes u smile
cruel to the eye
watching him hold what used to be mine....."
sounds familiar scott? uhhh i am naughty. sowwy. soooorrryyyyyy. oh man i can be a bitch sometimes but then i remember being a bitch can be very positive. lets see if i can remember right.
b - beautiful
i - individuum
t - that
c - causes
h - hardons
yup girls. being a bitch is not so bad.
its getting late. me getting sleepy. was trying to dive a lil into the chatworld again. and i have to say i dont miss it. i miss my friends. but thats about it. no more nahhhh. just wished i could spend more time with scott. but i guess life is killing us. too busy to life. ya right. he must be getting up now.
left some messages for pj. hope u doing fine babe !!! dont know whats going on with him and that worries me a bit. hope he is healthy again.
left some messages for pj. hope u doing fine babe !!! dont know whats going on with him and that worries me a bit. hope he is healthy again.
GONE
There's a thousand words that I could sayTo make you come homeOh, seems so long ago you walked awayLeft me aloneI remember what you said to meYou were acting so strangeand maybe I was too blind to seeThat you needed a changeWas it something I saidTo make you turn away?
To make you walk out and leave me coldIf I could just find a wayTo make it so that you were right here
But right now..I've been sitting hereCan't get you off my mindI've tried my best to be a man and be strongI've drove myself insaneWishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains..You're gone..You're gone..Baby you're goneGirl you're gone, baby girl, you're gone..You're gone..You're...I don't wanna make excuses, babyWon't change the fact that you're goneBut if there's something that I could doWon't you please let me know?
Time is passing so slowly nowGuess that's my life without youand maybe I could change my every day But baby I don't want to So I'll just hang aroundand find some things to doTo take my mind off missing youand I know in my heartYou can't say that you don't love me tooPlease say you do
I've been sitting hereCan't get you off my mindI've tried my best to be a man and be strongI Drove myself insaneWishing I could touch your faceBut the truth remainsYou're gone..You're gone..You're goneYou're gone...you're gone.. you're....GoneOhhh...Oh what'll I doIf I can't be with youTell me where will I turn toBaby who will I beNow that we are apart
Am I still in your heart? Baby why don't you see?That I need you here with meOohhh...I've been sitting hereCan't get you off my mindI've tried my best to be a man and be strongI've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your faceBut the truth remainsBeen sitting hereCan't get you off my mindI've tried my best to be a man and be strongI drove myself insaneWishing I could touch your face
But the truth remainsYou're gone..You're gone..You're goneYou're goneGoneYou're gone..But the truth remainsYou're....
There's a thousand words that I could sayTo make you come homeOh, seems so long ago you walked awayLeft me aloneI remember what you said to meYou were acting so strangeand maybe I was too blind to seeThat you needed a changeWas it something I saidTo make you turn away?
To make you walk out and leave me coldIf I could just find a wayTo make it so that you were right here
But right now..I've been sitting hereCan't get you off my mindI've tried my best to be a man and be strongI've drove myself insaneWishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains..You're gone..You're gone..Baby you're goneGirl you're gone, baby girl, you're gone..You're gone..You're...I don't wanna make excuses, babyWon't change the fact that you're goneBut if there's something that I could doWon't you please let me know?
Time is passing so slowly nowGuess that's my life without youand maybe I could change my every day But baby I don't want to So I'll just hang aroundand find some things to doTo take my mind off missing youand I know in my heartYou can't say that you don't love me tooPlease say you do
I've been sitting hereCan't get you off my mindI've tried my best to be a man and be strongI Drove myself insaneWishing I could touch your faceBut the truth remainsYou're gone..You're gone..You're goneYou're gone...you're gone.. you're....GoneOhhh...Oh what'll I doIf I can't be with youTell me where will I turn toBaby who will I beNow that we are apart
Am I still in your heart? Baby why don't you see?That I need you here with meOohhh...I've been sitting hereCan't get you off my mindI've tried my best to be a man and be strongI've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your faceBut the truth remainsBeen sitting hereCan't get you off my mindI've tried my best to be a man and be strongI drove myself insaneWishing I could touch your face
But the truth remainsYou're gone..You're gone..You're goneYou're goneGoneYou're gone..But the truth remainsYou're....
You Gotta Be
Listen as your day unfolds,challenge what your future holdsTry to keep your head up to the skyLovers they may cause you tearsGo ahead release your fearsStand up and be counted,don't be shamed to cryYou gotta be..
You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold,you gotta be wiserYou gotta hard, you gotta be tough,you gotta be strongerYou gotta be cool, you gotta be calm,you gotta stay together.All I know, all I knowLove will save the day
Herald what your mother saidRead the books your father readTry to solve the puzzlein your own sweet timeSome may have more cash than youOthers take a different viewMy oh my, you gotta be..
Time asks no questions, it goes on without youLeaving you behind if you can't stand the paceThe world keeps on spinning, can't stop it if you tried toThe best part is danger staring you in the face
Got to be bad. Got to be boldGot to be wise. Don't ever be coldGot to be hard. Not too, too hardAll I know is, love will save the day
Listen as your day unfolds,challenge what your future holdsTry to keep your head up to the skyLovers they may cause you tearsGo ahead release your fearsStand up and be counted,don't be shamed to cryYou gotta be..
You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold,you gotta be wiserYou gotta hard, you gotta be tough,you gotta be strongerYou gotta be cool, you gotta be calm,you gotta stay together.All I know, all I knowLove will save the day
Herald what your mother saidRead the books your father readTry to solve the puzzlein your own sweet timeSome may have more cash than youOthers take a different viewMy oh my, you gotta be..
Time asks no questions, it goes on without youLeaving you behind if you can't stand the paceThe world keeps on spinning, can't stop it if you tried toThe best part is danger staring you in the face
Got to be bad. Got to be boldGot to be wise. Don't ever be coldGot to be hard. Not too, too hardAll I know is, love will save the day
time: 9:24 pm
drinking: too much ice-tea
wearing: jeans and a shirt
listening to: my love is like whoaaaaa from mya
i am glad that: the day is almost over
am proud of: my beautiful daughter- she had her first trumpet concert-she was awesome
last talked to on phone: mom from school
last cried: oh i dont know-crying so many times
enjoyed: laughing and having a coffee with sabine-my lovely neighbour from 1st floor
tomorrow i have to: do too many things-grrrrrrrr
today i: had another argument with my father-yup its hard to be the black sheep in the family
sorry i missed ur call scotty- i do miss u terribly too darling-hope u keeping chin up-we going to make it, no worries. today was a nice day. spent it with ppl i like, and thats very good. lots of things coming up this weekend. being in politics turns out to be very interesting. going to make the best of it. learning new things. yeah.
skin on skin- just a lil bit more love- just a lil bit more passion- this is how it should begin- skin on skin!
hope i didnt hurt u by going out with another guy. i had the feeling u were putting up a good face just to make me think ur ok with everything. or maybe i was just hoping for a lil bit more jealousy. was there any? i dont know. could i expect any? hmmm. its hart to so far apart. but we know and i think u agreed that we would mess it up. so lets make the best of it mr missen. u know i think a lot of you. but.... i just cant trust u yet. thats the one thing u dont have of me. i am sorry but i cant trust u yet. i still have worries. i dont know what happend last time. i didnt see it coming and i am scared of that. i dont wanna be hurt again. u promised me that´ll never happen again. i do want to believe u. trying so hard. but i think the it is its ok. i do miss u terribly. i hope u know that !!!!
drinking: too much ice-tea
wearing: jeans and a shirt
listening to: my love is like whoaaaaa from mya
i am glad that: the day is almost over
am proud of: my beautiful daughter- she had her first trumpet concert-she was awesome
last talked to on phone: mom from school
last cried: oh i dont know-crying so many times
enjoyed: laughing and having a coffee with sabine-my lovely neighbour from 1st floor
tomorrow i have to: do too many things-grrrrrrrr
today i: had another argument with my father-yup its hard to be the black sheep in the family
sorry i missed ur call scotty- i do miss u terribly too darling-hope u keeping chin up-we going to make it, no worries. today was a nice day. spent it with ppl i like, and thats very good. lots of things coming up this weekend. being in politics turns out to be very interesting. going to make the best of it. learning new things. yeah.
skin on skin- just a lil bit more love- just a lil bit more passion- this is how it should begin- skin on skin!
hope i didnt hurt u by going out with another guy. i had the feeling u were putting up a good face just to make me think ur ok with everything. or maybe i was just hoping for a lil bit more jealousy. was there any? i dont know. could i expect any? hmmm. its hart to so far apart. but we know and i think u agreed that we would mess it up. so lets make the best of it mr missen. u know i think a lot of you. but.... i just cant trust u yet. thats the one thing u dont have of me. i am sorry but i cant trust u yet. i still have worries. i dont know what happend last time. i didnt see it coming and i am scared of that. i dont wanna be hurt again. u promised me that´ll never happen again. i do want to believe u. trying so hard. but i think the it is its ok. i do miss u terribly. i hope u know that !!!!
ayaaaa pj. so nice to see u post here. plz come back here to talk to me. glad u doing fine. me doing ok too. much stress but i am living i guess. sunday is julia´s first conzert playing the trumpet. she is already nervous. she is growing up so fast. i am doing ok. diving into politics. trying to survive there. i am still working on my personal changes i need to make. damn i am so lazy sometimes. but one positive thing or man in my life turns out to be SCOTT. yah him. love him so dearly. we´re so close friends now. cant miss him in my life. he picks me up when i am down. Love u scott ! hope to hear from you pj!!!
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