For Scott ...
I don't feel like loving you today,
So don't you even try to change my mind,
The best thing you can do right now,
Is just go away,
Cause I don't feel like loving you today,
I don't wanna talk about last night,
I'm angry and I haven't had much sleep,
And I'm so tired and bloodshot,
There's no tellin' what I'd say,
I don't feel like loving you today,
But you know I will anyway,
Even though we make it hard sometimes,
I'll wind up forgiving and probably loving you,
For the rest of my life,
But I don't feel like loving you today,
And I've got 16 hours left to go,
I might tell you that I'm leaving,
Even though you know I'll stay,
Cause I don't feel like loving you today,
But you know I will anyway,
Even though we make it hard sometimes,
I'll wind up forgiving and probably loving you,
For the rest of my life,
But I don't feel like loving you today,
I just don't feel like loving you today...
New members...
We have two new members in our big family.
Julia got two turtles yesterday. She saved a lot of money to get them and waited for them to hatch.She has papers and all for them. Now they arrived. And they are so cute.
After studying them we called them...Mr. Monk and Sherona!!!
And believe me those names and characters fit them. Julia is very proud of them and learns how to take care of them. Thank god we have sylvia close to guide and help us, she has turtles since she was a kid.
time...
time: evening
last caller: Byron
Wearing: black skirt and a beige top
Hearing: Unfaithful by Rihanna
Drinking: lots of water and icetea
Weather: its raining, finally, that was needed
Talking: to julia, she got her turtles yesterday
thinking: what a sad and poor life karen must have, sheeze
Playing: with my hair
Dreamed: that i was pregnant? dont know why?
Mood: actually not bad
Craving: a good ...lick
song on my mind: wake me up before u go go by wham, dont ask me why?
missing: my man
last caller: Byron
Wearing: black skirt and a beige top
Hearing: Unfaithful by Rihanna
Drinking: lots of water and icetea
Weather: its raining, finally, that was needed
Talking: to julia, she got her turtles yesterday
thinking: what a sad and poor life karen must have, sheeze
Playing: with my hair
Dreamed: that i was pregnant? dont know why?
Mood: actually not bad
Craving: a good ...lick
song on my mind: wake me up before u go go by wham, dont ask me why?
missing: my man
Bipolar...
ok. i think i seriously gotta read and learn more about bipolar disorder. so i can handle it better.
https://www.nimh.nih.gov/publicat/bipolar.cfm#bp8
Bipolar disorder, also known as manic-depressive illness, is a brain disorder that causes unusual shifts in a person's mood, energy, and ability to function. Different from the normal ups and downs that everyone goes through, the symptoms of bipolar disorder are severe. They can result in damaged relationships, poor job or school performance, and even suicide. But there is good news: bipolar disorder can be treated, and people with this illness can lead full and productive lives.
"Manic-depression distorts moods and thoughts, incites dreadful behaviors, destroys the basis of rational thought, and too often erodes the desire and will to live. It is an illness that is biological in its origins, yet one that feels psychological in the experience of it; an illness that is unique in conferring advantage and pleasure, yet one that brings in its wake almost unendurable suffering and, not infrequently, suicide."
Bipolar disorder causes dramatic mood swings—from overly "high" and/or irritable to sad and hopeless, and then back again, often with periods of normal mood in between. Severe changes in energy and behavior go along with these changes in mood. The periods of highs and lows are called episodes of mania and depression.
It may be helpful to think of the various mood states in bipolar disorder as a spectrum or continuous range. At one end is severe depression, above which is moderate depression and then mild low mood, which many people call "the blues" when it is short-lived but is termed "dysthymia" when it is chronic. Then there is normal or balanced mood, above which comes hypomania (mild to moderate mania), and then severe mania.
https://www.nimh.nih.gov/publicat/bipolar.cfm#bp8
Bipolar disorder, also known as manic-depressive illness, is a brain disorder that causes unusual shifts in a person's mood, energy, and ability to function. Different from the normal ups and downs that everyone goes through, the symptoms of bipolar disorder are severe. They can result in damaged relationships, poor job or school performance, and even suicide. But there is good news: bipolar disorder can be treated, and people with this illness can lead full and productive lives.
"Manic-depression distorts moods and thoughts, incites dreadful behaviors, destroys the basis of rational thought, and too often erodes the desire and will to live. It is an illness that is biological in its origins, yet one that feels psychological in the experience of it; an illness that is unique in conferring advantage and pleasure, yet one that brings in its wake almost unendurable suffering and, not infrequently, suicide."
Bipolar disorder causes dramatic mood swings—from overly "high" and/or irritable to sad and hopeless, and then back again, often with periods of normal mood in between. Severe changes in energy and behavior go along with these changes in mood. The periods of highs and lows are called episodes of mania and depression.
It may be helpful to think of the various mood states in bipolar disorder as a spectrum or continuous range. At one end is severe depression, above which is moderate depression and then mild low mood, which many people call "the blues" when it is short-lived but is termed "dysthymia" when it is chronic. Then there is normal or balanced mood, above which comes hypomania (mild to moderate mania), and then severe mania.
He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true
And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him insideTo know
that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...A murderer
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true
And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him insideTo know
that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...A murderer
My mood...
wanna know how i feel???
I know I can be a little stubborn sometimes
A little righteous and too proud
I just want to find a way to compromise
Cos I believe that we can work things out
I thought I had all the answers never giving in
But baby since you've gone
I admit that I was wrong
All I know is I'm lost without you
I'm not gonna lie
How my going to be strong without you
I need you by my side u
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do?
I'm lost without you
I keep trying to find my way
but all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day
I'm lost without you
How my ever gonna get rid of these blues
Baby I'm so lonely all the time
Everywhere I go I get so confused
You're the only thing that's on my mind
Oh my beds so cold at night and I miss you more each day
Only you can make it right no
I'm not too proud to say
All I know is I'm lost without you
I'm not gonna lie
How my going to be strong without you
I need you by my side u
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do?
I'm lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you
If I could only hold you now and make the pain just go away
Can't stop the tears from running down my face
I know I can be a little stubborn sometimes
A little righteous and too proud
I just want to find a way to compromise
Cos I believe that we can work things out
I thought I had all the answers never giving in
But baby since you've gone
I admit that I was wrong
All I know is I'm lost without you
I'm not gonna lie
How my going to be strong without you
I need you by my side u
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do?
I'm lost without you
I keep trying to find my way
but all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day
I'm lost without you
How my ever gonna get rid of these blues
Baby I'm so lonely all the time
Everywhere I go I get so confused
You're the only thing that's on my mind
Oh my beds so cold at night and I miss you more each day
Only you can make it right no
I'm not too proud to say
All I know is I'm lost without you
I'm not gonna lie
How my going to be strong without you
I need you by my side u
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do?
I'm lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you
If I could only hold you now and make the pain just go away
Can't stop the tears from running down my face
I am tired...
I am tired...very tired. Everything is just so tiring since its so hot. Scott and me have a lot of arguements. He is having a hard time right now. His mom is not doing very well. I dont know how i can help him being so far away. I feel him breaking down. I feel helpless. Seems everything i say or do is wrong. I know we will get through this. I promised him to not leave him whatever happens. I am here. I am here.
I love you Scott...i am not a perfect person... theres many things i wish i didnt do...but i continue learning.....
Everything will be fine
Angie
I love you Scott...i am not a perfect person... theres many things i wish i didnt do...but i continue learning.....
Everything will be fine
Angie
Happy birthday...
Happy birthday!!!
happy birthday to Martin, Sabines Husband (vienna)...Looking forward to tonights Lasagne invitation. Dont let that bastard on fourth floor win!!!! LOL
happy birthday to Martin, Sabines Husband (vienna)...Looking forward to tonights Lasagne invitation. Dont let that bastard on fourth floor win!!!! LOL
Hot day...
Surfing: www.honeyblaze.blogspot.com
Last caller: Sabine
Wearing: Red top, black pants and my black bathing suit
Hearing: Sabine talk
Eating: ice cream
Drinking: Lots and lots and lots of water !!!!
Weather: sun, every day, sun. two weeks and it hasnt rained
Thinking: about a 32 year old guy named S....
Playing with: a young guy named D.... he he he
Dreamed: is censored. sowwy....
Mood: tired but it was a good day
Watching: the sun set
Craving: hungry, grilled chicken oh yummy!!!!! i want my baby to cook for me!!!
Smelling: like sun lotion
Song i listen to: No angels from the band No angels
wish: that my man feels better soon. love him so much!
Last caller: Sabine
Wearing: Red top, black pants and my black bathing suit
Hearing: Sabine talk
Eating: ice cream
Drinking: Lots and lots and lots of water !!!!
Weather: sun, every day, sun. two weeks and it hasnt rained
Thinking: about a 32 year old guy named S....
Playing with: a young guy named D.... he he he
Dreamed: is censored. sowwy....
Mood: tired but it was a good day
Watching: the sun set
Craving: hungry, grilled chicken oh yummy!!!!! i want my baby to cook for me!!!
Smelling: like sun lotion
Song i listen to: No angels from the band No angels
wish: that my man feels better soon. love him so much!
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