Our mood ...

I think i talk in Sabines name when i say this reflects our mood and feelings at the moment...

We hurt but we will survive ...

I try to fly away but it's impossible
And every breath I take gives birth to deeper sighs
And for a moment I am weak
So it's hard for me to speak
Even though we're underneath the same blue sky

If I could paint a picture of this melody
It would be a violin without its strings
And the canvas in my mind
Sings the songs I left behind
Like pretty flowers and a sunset

It's heavy on my heart
I can't make it alone
Heavy on my heart
I can't find my way home
Heavy on my heart
So come and free me
It's so heavy on my heart

I've had my share of pleasure
And I've tasted pain
I never thought that I would touch an angel's wings
There's a journey in my eyes
It's getting hard for me to hide
Like the ocean at the sunrise

Love, can you find me in the darkness, and love,
Don't let me down
There's a journey in my eyes
It's getting hard for me to hide
And I never thought I'd touch an angel's wings

Everything will be fine

Angie

sabine...

Sabine asked me yesterday...

Why do the people you like most always dissapoint you ???

thats why...

Anyone who can touch you
Can hurt you
or heal you
Anyone who can reach you
Can love you or leave you...


that´s why !!!

wearing: black skirt and a oliv sweater
Drinking: should drink coffee...lots of coffee
Feeling: tired, tired oh yeah and tired
Missing: Scott... so much... as always sigh
Last talked on phone to: Scott... he called to wish me a good night
This morning i : ... woke up happy cause of my wonderful dream
I wish : ... i had a cleaning maid when i see the afterparty mess !!!!!!!!
Laughed last with:... Sabine, looking at some funny articles in the newspaper
I am gonna : ... learn the Italian method ;-P
ate last : cake, choclate cake yummy mmmmmhhhh
had to smile when : ... i read chups email. Hey there chup if u read this... nice to hear from you!


I have to answer here to Justin, i think thats your name? To your email.
Sorry i havent been blogging that much. I promise to be on here more often now. But to your request, i talked with scott about it and i know blogging our personal Sms was always very popular. But to impress your girl you should use your own words, thats a message from Scott to you. As much as he likes to help you, but his are just for me. I think if u look inside your heart you will find the right words for your girl. I wont post any right now. My man wrote them just for me. Maybe some time later and maybe some from me to my baby? U can email me and tell me whats up in your relationship. I will answer you, it´s all good.

Julias B-day !!!!

Oh man. My girl had her 11th bday last thursday. She is growing up so fast. She is a young lady now. I am missing my lil girl. sigh...

We had a busy bday. Lots of people came to see her on thursday. But her bday party with her girls was yesterday. She had a sleepover bday party with 7 of her friends and i tell u i am so so so tired and just wanna sleep. Lots of girls in puberty... what did i think of??? i fell asleep around 1 am after that who knows what happend. Well they were all still here when i woke up so it was ok i guess lol. Scott called b4 i fell asleep to say night so i had a nice comforting sleep.
I dreamt of him. He took me in his arms and i felt so secure. I looked at him and was just happy. The odd part was that Sabines friend Thomas appeard in my dream too. He drove by in his truck and i told Scott : look theres thomas! that was it. Strange huh. But all i can remember is this warm and secure feeling being in his arms. Oh i wanna go back to sleep !!!!!!!

she´s everything...

She's a yellow pair of running shoes
A holey pair of jeans
She looks great in cheap sunglasses
She looks great in anything
She's I want a piece of chocolate
Take me to a movie
She's I can't find a thing to wear
Now and then she's moody

And she's everything I ever wanted
And everything I need
I talk about her, I go on and on and on
'Cause she's everything to me...

it`s been a while...

it´s been a while since Scott and me talked for longer on the phone. so it was nice to do that the other day. Although he was very tired and was about to go to sleep. He was working late. His voice still triggers many emotions in me. That butterfly in tummy feeling is still here, still after all this time. It´s been a bit quiet between us. But it is ok. It was akward since i asked myself, does he think of me too? Doesn´t he wanna know what i am up to like usually? Not talking doesn´t mean not caring. I know that. He, like me, always welcomed quiet days between us. It´s good to have space once in a while.

One question he asked was if it was ok for him to get a license and a motorcycle. Ok i thought, taking a deep breath. He is gonna do it anyways. so i said yes. But then i realised he would have walked away from that plan if i say NO. Wow. What a man huh. Of course i said i have no problem with it. I really dont. I just worry about him more now. it would kill me if something happend to him. But there is no reason he shouldn´t do it.

But that night i had a bad dream. I had it two nights in a row now. And i am scared. I dreamed that i got a call saying Scott had and accident and he is badly hurt. I rushed to him and he died in my arms. He just dissapeard. I woke up so frightend. I wasnt planing on telling him. But since he would know anyways reading it here i told him in a short sms a little while ago. We haven´t talked about it yet.

I didn´t change my mind. I am still ok with it. I guess it´s just cause i miss him so much. It´s not a bad omen. I know that. He will be ok.

Tonight i am going to the movies with Andi. We are seeing "The guardian" with Kostner and Kutcher. Kutcher i am looking forward to but Kostner, Oh oh oh. Well it will be a nice evening. He called me asking if it was ok if a friend joins us, one i don´t know yet. UUUHHH. I am looking forward meeting one of his friends. I have to behave lol. It´s all good. I am happy and proud he trusts me that much.

Julia is getting her new bed this afternoon and is so excited. It´s the one she chose. So i gotta go and clean up a bit, sighhh.

You all have a wonderful weekend.

Everything will be fine

Angie

Too lost ...

How do i feel... hmmm... to say it with a song...Sugababes...Too lost in you... I am lost in you baby...

You look into my eyes
I go out of my mind
I can't see anything
Cos this love's got me blind
I can't help myself
I can't break this spell
I can't even try

I'm in over my head
You got under my skin
I got no strength at all
In the state that I'm in
And my knees are weak
And my mouth can't speak
Fell too far this time

Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do
I'm too lost in you

Well you whispered to me
And I shiver inside
You undo me
and move me
In ways undefined
And you're all I see
And you're all I need
Help me baby
Help me baby

Cos I'm slipping away
Like the sand to the tide
Flowing into your arms
Falling into your eyes
If you get too near
I might disappear
I might lose my mind

Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep,
I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do
I'm too lost in you
I'm going crazy in love for you baby
(I can't eat and I can't sleep)
I'm going down like a stone in the sea

Oberdan Carneiro...

Oberdan Carneiro, a wonderful talented brasilian soccer player has been shot in his home country brasilia this last june. He leaves a wife and 3 little kids behind. It´s very tragic. We all feel with Lisa and her kids.
He played a few years here in Rankweil and he did magic. It was so entertaining to watch him play. Even i went to see him do his magic on the soccer field. And it wasnt cause i knew him and his wife personally. He was always friendly and talked to the kids who looked up to him.

Today there was a charity soccer game to benefit his wife who lives in poverty right now. Life is hard and cruel in Brasilia. I hope a lot of money has been given to the organisers and we all hope it will reach her.

We also saw wonderful Soccer in Oberdans name. His friends from all over came to play and to support his family.

Tiny stars ...

Tiny stars shining bright
it´s time for me to say good night.

So close your eyes and snuggle up tight
as I am wishing you sweet dreams tonight !


This is the my babys good night sms for me.
He makes sure i get it before i go to sleep.
I love him so much for little details like this.
He makes me laugh, smile and cry so many times.

Rainy sunday ...

It´s a rainy sunday and i am finally home...was in the election comitee in my village and today was uhuu election day... got up pretty early and was so tired... but i got out early... as soon as the votes were counted i left for home... skipped the party... have so many meetings this week... also at night... tiring week ahead and i just wanna sleep... miss my man so much... i miss you has so much more meaning now... holds so many emotions... his sms get me through the day... him thinking of me... cheering me up... letting me know how much i mean to him... loving him is so easy... loving him has become so natural... as if i have done that forever... he means so much to me... i love you... so much baby...


everything will be fine

Angie