My webmaster and good friend...

I would like to say a BIIGGGG thank you to Pj... he has been the brain... the designer and the webmaster of this blog... we went through a few designs and he was always patient with me when i screwed up something... he is a talented man and i am really thankful for his friendship...
thank you PJ.... mwaha

Honey sayz....

Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around
That you were gonna make me cry... !!!
It's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie !!!

Tom...

.... Tom... he has the pleasure to take me out on the first date as a single woman... he will pick me up soon... i put my sexiest outfit on and i am all ready to be spoiled with everything he can offer me.......

3 bottles of wine...

uuuhhhh.... three bottles of red wine... and then we gave up... we had a fun evening yesterday... Sabine, Andi, Silke and me... wohooo... i was ...well... a bit drunk... it was ok...i haven´t laughed this much in a long time... and i slept damn good yesterday night... julia woke me up around 10 am... today i feel so lazy... gonna spend the evening infront of the tv... or accept the invitation of that cute guy?... i have his phonenumber... i am not 100 % sure if i am ready... he said, call and i am there.... hmmm... let´s see what this day brings... let´s see...
There are times I can leave my heart wide open.
There are days I believe I can heal wounds on me.
There are times I could come to you and hurt you.
I could easily bring you tears!!!
I could send you to hell, I know you!!
have a good weekend ya all !!!
everything will be fine
Angie

Mother`s day....

oh... another year passed already? ... wow... yeah... one day julia has to be nice to me lol... nahh... just kidding... a big YAY to all the mothers out there... and after reading Felines blog... RESPECT TO YOU GIRL !!!... wow... i cried reading your entries... i am so so so so damn proud of you...

this goes out to all the moms... thank you for all you do... Sabine... we will get through this... and you are a wonderful mom! U better believe me !

to my mom... up in heaven... i miss you very much... every day....

Since your childhood you have watched your mom washing and ironing your clothes,

keeping your school uniform sparkling and spotless,

and your jumpers without a single crease.

You have been lucky enough to be picked and dropped to and from your school every single day right form your first day at school.

Whenever you had a fight and for the slightest reason or if you needed a reason to cry on someone's shoulders,

your mom was the one giving you the comfort and patiently listening to all your heartburns and grumbling.

Just remember the innumerable times you wanted a fresh new set of designer clothes and your mother dug out her pocket money to fulfill your wish.

The food world in which you gorged ever since you were a child and grew up on, was cooked day in and day out by your beloved mother.

Just think of the hundreds of incredible dishes she prepared for you, the tasty lunchboxes she fixed for you, the cakes she baked, the snacks, the cups of tea and delicious suppers.

It surely makes your mouth water even now.

Your mother is always there for you through every thick-and-thin of your life. She is the person you can depend upon to stand by you anytime you need her.

Remember all those difficult undecided moments of life and you needed someone who could make you see reason and pour some worldly-wise advice in your ears. It was surely your mother who lent you patient ears and then pulled you out of the mess in your life.

Think about the tons of love she professes for you everyday through all her acts, big and small. It can't even be measured. It can only be felt.

Scott....

Scott.......



this will be the last time you will read this name on this blog.....


Everything will be fine

Ange

oral sex...

so... my daughter asked me the other day: mummy, what is oral sex?
(OH MY GOOOODD!!!!!!!!!!) ok ok... stay calm ange... no problem...
you can handle it.... take a deep breath... you are turning blue... Breathe!!!!

ok ok... i caught myself and thought hard about it... i am a cool mom... i want my daughter
to ask me anything... how many times have i told her that... so here i go...
so... i talked about oral sex... short and in few words... thank god she said... UHHHHH NOOOOOO!!!!!!!!PFUUUUIIIIII!!... YES YES!! thats what i wanted to hear...
phew... i think there are many more things coming my way... i decided to answer her
questions whenever they come my way... when kids ask... you should answer... then
they are ready to hear it... so ... me... cool mommy... ;-)

so she did it...

so she did it... yes i am proud of her... after all this time my best girlfriend told her hubby that she wanted a divorce...
and this once she stood strong and didn´t let him talk her out of it...
i know how hard that is... you forgive and forgive... thinking he will change...
he regrets... he tries...
but there are too many cuts in your heart...

she did it... she got the strength through a relationship she just started...
i don´t approve of that... i told her... it´s not about the man... i don´t know him yet...
he gives her things... words... emotions...
the love she craved for so many years...
i just want her to keep her eyes open...
stay alert!
don´t mistake this feelings...

are you in love or just in love with being in love?
i have been asked that... i could honestly say...
i am in love him him... for 2 years... don´t get me wrong...
i am still in love... is he waiting for it to go away?

... he messaged me... i didn´t message back...
i won´t... he made a choice and he has to live with it...
i am not picking up the pieces anymore...
i am feeling fine... better than i thought...

so bear with me... i am sorry if i seem sad to you...
i am really not... but this is my diary...
sorry if i bore you with the same over and over again...
it´ll go away... lol

go to my girls ice blog... there you can read some good stuff...

www.icedome.blogspot.com

Symphonie...

i saw pj mention that he heard this song on my blog... yeah pj... its a beautiful song...i am ok... so no worries ok??? mwahhh

tell me, what happend to us?
u suddenly seem like a stranger to me
why am i not feeling good anymore laying in your arms?
is it unimportant what is happening to us?

where are you going? i can hardly see you anymore
vanity is in our way?
didn´t we wanna risk all?
did we betray ourselves
i thought we could conquer everything !

symphonie...
now there is silence all around us...
we stand in the pouring rain...
nothing to give each other...
it´s better when u leave....

everything will be fine

Angie

Jump to conclusions...

"You jump to too many conclusions"...yeah... uhuh... what else is there?
after two years of just words... i can´t look into you... i can´t see your actions...
if you laugh... cry... if you are angry... sad... upset... bothered... hiding something...
what you are feeling right now... what are you feeling?
i have to guess... cause you wouldn´t tell me...

yeah i know you won´t tell me what i want to hear... how do you know what i want to hear huh?
do you even care?...

do you want me to think that you are having the time of your life?
you don´t feel sad?
you don´t miss me?
you go on with everyday life not thinking about me anymore?
do you look at my pic?
how am i supposed to know?
if you don´t tell me... i have to build my own opinion
if you don´t tell me... i will jump to conclusions when a woman answers the phone
is that so bad?

u can´t take me in your arms to show me how much you miss me... you have to tell me
u can´t kiss me and touch me to show me how much you want me... you have to tell me
u can´t walk out and be angry... you have to tell me
i can´t see you sit there in tears... you have to tell me

i don´t know anything right now...
people keep asking me...
is there another woman in his life?
did he sleep with someone else already?
they don´t know how much it hurts...
i smile and i say... i don´t know... i don´t care...

but it hurts... i do care...
we talk and i say...
yeah scott... i am fine, thank you !

you message me late at night,
thinking i would be sleeping
so you wont have to talk to me... yeah a conclusion of mine...

i saw the message.. read it...late at night
but i chose to didn´t answer you...

i don´t know what to do...
you behave like everything is ok with you...
so do I...

so do I...