heya all.....

hello my darlings.... spring is here... its a beautiful sunny day here and i love it.

its about time the sun came out ;)

we got a new tv ystd. a philips flatscreen. my man surprised me with it. yaaaaaaay.

thats a new tv feeling. my other one was about 12 years old. and had a few ticks lol

soooooooooo we gonna do a dvd evening , make popcorn and make out in last row lol

hope all ur darlings are doing well !

everything will be fine

Honey

Sick

awwwwwww.... i want sun !!! i want spring !!!!

i have a cold.. got it from my darling daughter.... and i feel soooo sick... and its monday

baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.... and where is my male nurse when i need him????

my darling man is at work sighhhhh

ya ya.... i need some attention ! i need some cuddling !

hope ya all feel good

is currently under the influence of cold and flu medicine...my actions can not be held against me!!

everything will be fine ! haaaaatschiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

oops sorry

Honey

Anniversary

true love ....

omg... have u ever had the feeling of being loved.... and i mean loved in every way possible ? i feel like that right now... seems i can do no wrong... and believe me i tried... i accidentally spilled some coffee over his laptop... it was really an accident.... he got mad yeah... but not infront of me i guess... he took a walk and treated me with the same love and respect as b4 i ruined his laptop lol... well it still works but typing is a bit difficult right now....

sometimes i ask myself how i deserve that man.... he is the best that could ever happen... we have our issues but we work through it... he is the shy and calm one... i am the loud and wild one...

he came into my life when i tried to get over brian ...i let it happen ... didnt know why then.... what or if i needed it ... but it was a good choice... i am happy.... julia has him wrapped around her lil finger... poor him....lol

anyways....

if love happens.... then let if happen... u deserve good ... let it in your life .... embrace love ... give love....

in this pic i was totally drunk lol... but he still was the sweetest and got me to bed.... love u baby

oh my i look bad .... grrrrrrrrrrrr

everything will be alright

honey

have a great weekend

The Universe can only give you what you feel worthy of receiving...

YOU are worth ALL the good stuff!!

have a great weekend my lovelies..... spend time with the people u love

everything will be fine

honey

old loves....

yeah its me.... still alive... yeah yeah i know lol... but u can always find me on facebook my darlings lol... i know i have been neglecting u... sooooo

i come back here and read brians message... darn.... on one side i was happy to hear from him.. oh he comes here to see how i am doing ... i guess so hmmm.... but....

seeing his name... reading his words... bring back feelings i thought i didnt have anymore.... he broke my heart and i put it way behind me.... i felt rejected... i felt hurt.... and i loved him so much... sooooooo ... ignoring feelings for someone doesnt mean they are gone... arghhhhhh

brian.. i wish u the best... somewhere is a woman that will give u what u need or what u want.. i wasnt the one in ur eyes... i respect that and i understood now... still love u and hope u find happiness... thats what u deserve and none less babe

everything will be fine... hell yeah

honey

The day is here....

the day is here....... i made myself busy all day.. since early morning.. i refuse to talk about it.. i cant help my feelings... i put them way back in my head... but they overflow my heart... i try to see the positive thing... my anniversary with my wonderful man... and i think of the words of a dear friend who said.. he came to u on that exact date for a reason... i try hard to see that... i know its true... but heart doesnt agree with mind...... arghhhh... i keep everything up till my head hits pillow.. then i allow myself to cry.. to cry in my mans arms who is more than ready to allow me to do that ... he is just the best...... but that doesnt stop the pain..... it doesnt.....

Das einzig Wichtige im Leben
sind die Spuren von Liebe,
die wir hinterlassen,
wenn wir ungefragt weggehen
und Abschied nehmen müssen.
Albert Schweitzer

Haiti Earthquake

how terrible... checking in on news all day to watch news about haiti... its such a poor country and this earthquake is heartbreaking... real life drama.. so many life lost.. and many more will die cause of poor or non excisting medical help!

Red Cross is taking donations via text messages. Text the word HAITI to the number 90999 to donate $10 to Red Cross relief efforts.

http://edition.cnn.com/SPECIALS/2007/impact/

http://www.cnn.com/2010/WORLD/americas/01/13/haiti.earthquake/index.html

its all beyond heartbreaking !! let them know we care ! help in any way u can !

pray that everything will be good

Honey

I think i wont be doing so well....

sooooooooooo .. its january.. once again... since 4 years now january is not my fave month.... its the month my mom passed away. and i was not ready. i damn was not ready to let her go. but she just left without asking us. damn cancer. i wanted more time. damn cancer.

even now i sit here crying. i am not over. will never be over it. i try to ignore it through the year. the pain. the loss. the empty space. but in january its not working.

she would have turned 60 on Jan 3 rd. i remember when we celebrated her 50 thiest. or maybe i better dont. it hurts. mothers are much needed. take good care of ur mothers. tell them u love them. hug them. i wish i could. but cancer took her away. way too early.

so i think i wont be doing so well this month.

i love u mom. u are deeply missed.

god only cries for the living.. cause they are left behind !

Happy new year!

I wish u all the best in the new year! love, laughter, joy.. lots of suny moments! strenght, energy and the courage to change the things u want to!

Have a happy new year !

Ines, Julia and Kader