wanna know how i feel???
I know I can be a little stubborn sometimes
A little righteous and too proud
I just want to find a way to compromise
Cos I believe that we can work things out
I thought I had all the answers never giving in
But baby since you've gone
I admit that I was wrong
All I know is I'm lost without you
I'm not gonna lie
How my going to be strong without you
I need you by my side u
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do?
I'm lost without you
I keep trying to find my way
but all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day
I'm lost without you
How my ever gonna get rid of these blues
Baby I'm so lonely all the time
Everywhere I go I get so confused
You're the only thing that's on my mind
Oh my beds so cold at night and I miss you more each day
Only you can make it right no
I'm not too proud to say
All I know is I'm lost without you
I'm not gonna lie
How my going to be strong without you
I need you by my side u
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do?
I'm lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you
If I could only hold you now and make the pain just go away
Can't stop the tears from running down my face
I am tired...
I am tired...very tired. Everything is just so tiring since its so hot. Scott and me have a lot of arguements. He is having a hard time right now. His mom is not doing very well. I dont know how i can help him being so far away. I feel him breaking down. I feel helpless. Seems everything i say or do is wrong. I know we will get through this. I promised him to not leave him whatever happens. I am here. I am here.
I love you Scott...i am not a perfect person... theres many things i wish i didnt do...but i continue learning.....
Everything will be fine
Angie
I love you Scott...i am not a perfect person... theres many things i wish i didnt do...but i continue learning.....
Everything will be fine
Angie
Happy birthday...
Happy birthday!!!
happy birthday to Martin, Sabines Husband (vienna)...Looking forward to tonights Lasagne invitation. Dont let that bastard on fourth floor win!!!! LOL
happy birthday to Martin, Sabines Husband (vienna)...Looking forward to tonights Lasagne invitation. Dont let that bastard on fourth floor win!!!! LOL
Hot day...
Surfing: www.honeyblaze.blogspot.com
Last caller: Sabine
Wearing: Red top, black pants and my black bathing suit
Hearing: Sabine talk
Eating: ice cream
Drinking: Lots and lots and lots of water !!!!
Weather: sun, every day, sun. two weeks and it hasnt rained
Thinking: about a 32 year old guy named S....
Playing with: a young guy named D.... he he he
Dreamed: is censored. sowwy....
Mood: tired but it was a good day
Watching: the sun set
Craving: hungry, grilled chicken oh yummy!!!!! i want my baby to cook for me!!!
Smelling: like sun lotion
Song i listen to: No angels from the band No angels
wish: that my man feels better soon. love him so much!
Last caller: Sabine
Wearing: Red top, black pants and my black bathing suit
Hearing: Sabine talk
Eating: ice cream
Drinking: Lots and lots and lots of water !!!!
Weather: sun, every day, sun. two weeks and it hasnt rained
Thinking: about a 32 year old guy named S....
Playing with: a young guy named D.... he he he
Dreamed: is censored. sowwy....
Mood: tired but it was a good day
Watching: the sun set
Craving: hungry, grilled chicken oh yummy!!!!! i want my baby to cook for me!!!
Smelling: like sun lotion
Song i listen to: No angels from the band No angels
wish: that my man feels better soon. love him so much!
Speedy...
well, well...i received a mail from an old friend who obviously has been busy reading my blog. He was very interested to read about my love life. He liked the entrys with our personal sms to each other. I dont remember the last time when i published some of them. Been some time. So since speedy asked to read a few new of them i searched my phone to share a few more lovely sms with you that were sent to me by my sexy, romantic man Scott...
08.04.06
You are the woman i care deeply about.
The woman whom i consider the best thing that has ever happend to me.
Stop being so cynical and treat this as a compliment that i want someone
there to protect you while i can´t.
07.05.06
I love u too Angel. Really i do. And i don´t even have to fuck you
to tell you that !
11.05.06
I saw it everyday.
Everytime i went to your blog.
It was there.
And in that time we werent together, i went there.
A lot.
Just to see what u were doing. If u mentioned me at all.
And it was always there. Will never forget that.
09.06.06
I wanna tell you to do all these things for me but its not right.
I am becoming obsessed with you. And your body.
I´m so in love with you i want more.
You are the one i have been waiting for all my life.
I have finally found you.
And now i am pissed i cant have you.
17.06.06
Your body is perfect for me.
There is more of you to love.
Perfect. Your body gets me horny. Those big boobs.
Gorgeous Arse.
Just thinking about kissing ......(censored)
is setting me off again.
13.07.06
I am not just your boyfriend anymore Angel !!
I am more than that.
13.07.06
There is always something that has to keep you from me.
Never an opportunity for us to have as much time as we want together.
And you wonder why i am so intense.It´s because there is not enough hours in the day for me to be able to be truly happy. I don´t like it when you´re not there.
So, there you are. A few more examples why Scott captured my heart. He is not perfect but who is??
I hope u all have fun reading those romantic messages and you guys take the time and write your partner one. It will be appreciated. Believe me!!
Everything will be fine
Angie
08.04.06
You are the woman i care deeply about.
The woman whom i consider the best thing that has ever happend to me.
Stop being so cynical and treat this as a compliment that i want someone
there to protect you while i can´t.
07.05.06
I love u too Angel. Really i do. And i don´t even have to fuck you
to tell you that !
11.05.06
I saw it everyday.
Everytime i went to your blog.
It was there.
And in that time we werent together, i went there.
A lot.
Just to see what u were doing. If u mentioned me at all.
And it was always there. Will never forget that.
09.06.06
I wanna tell you to do all these things for me but its not right.
I am becoming obsessed with you. And your body.
I´m so in love with you i want more.
You are the one i have been waiting for all my life.
I have finally found you.
And now i am pissed i cant have you.
17.06.06
Your body is perfect for me.
There is more of you to love.
Perfect. Your body gets me horny. Those big boobs.
Gorgeous Arse.
Just thinking about kissing ......(censored)
is setting me off again.
13.07.06
I am not just your boyfriend anymore Angel !!
I am more than that.
13.07.06
There is always something that has to keep you from me.
Never an opportunity for us to have as much time as we want together.
And you wonder why i am so intense.It´s because there is not enough hours in the day for me to be able to be truly happy. I don´t like it when you´re not there.
So, there you are. A few more examples why Scott captured my heart. He is not perfect but who is??
I hope u all have fun reading those romantic messages and you guys take the time and write your partner one. It will be appreciated. Believe me!!
Everything will be fine
Angie
First...
In the first pic u see Julia with Gabrielles son Adrian. He is the cutest. He was laughing
and happy all the time.
In the second pic u see Julia on the right, in the middle is Gabrielles oldest son Fabian and on
the right is Gabrielles neighbour and Julias friend Lisa. Both girls met first last year and kept
contact with each other since.
Next u see, from the left: Julia, Martha (sylvias aunt), Susanna, Florian, Melissa and Heinz
( Her uncle)
in the last pic are Julia and Susanna presenting Susannas new bought towel she bought in
IKEA. Yup we managed to go to IKEA. Thank you thank you for your applause !!!!
and happy all the time.
In the second pic u see Julia on the right, in the middle is Gabrielles oldest son Fabian and on
the right is Gabrielles neighbour and Julias friend Lisa. Both girls met first last year and kept
contact with each other since.
Next u see, from the left: Julia, Martha (sylvias aunt), Susanna, Florian, Melissa and Heinz
( Her uncle)
in the last pic are Julia and Susanna presenting Susannas new bought towel she bought in
IKEA. Yup we managed to go to IKEA. Thank you thank you for your applause !!!!
Fun fun fun...
We had so much fun. The train ride was long.
On our way to Vienna we stopped in Salzburg to go visit Sylvias parents.
The kids were behaving and kept themselves busy on our way to vienna.
One of the things they did was riding horses in a big park. We went there ( Laeerberg)
to have lunch with Sylvias old auntie Edith.
The restaurant (4*) was excellent. The service crew, all males, were very good in their job.
We were sitting outside and i was the only one with a seat in the sun, and before i could ask for sun umbrella, a polite and charming waiter came running with one asking if i needed some shadow. They deserved their tips. The kids discoverd the horses and we spent quite some time
there. It was so much fun.
On our way to Vienna we stopped in Salzburg to go visit Sylvias parents.
The kids were behaving and kept themselves busy on our way to vienna.
One of the things they did was riding horses in a big park. We went there ( Laeerberg)
to have lunch with Sylvias old auntie Edith.
The restaurant (4*) was excellent. The service crew, all males, were very good in their job.
We were sitting outside and i was the only one with a seat in the sun, and before i could ask for sun umbrella, a polite and charming waiter came running with one asking if i needed some shadow. They deserved their tips. The kids discoverd the horses and we spent quite some time
there. It was so much fun.
Vienna...
i am back. And what a vacation it has been. Although i love vienna it has been very stressful.
The kids fought a lot and it was so hot!! Freaking hot. We tried to make the best out of it.
But i already decided to go back in october when its not so hot anymore. We saw a lot of things and we shopped. Vienna is full of tourists at this time. But seeing the beautiful architecture is so wonderful.
Now the other stress factor. It was Scott. I just knew before i went it would go sour. He said since the beginning that it will be very hard for him not to talk to me regulary. So i sent a "hello" and a " i miss you" once in a while. I couldnt have long conversations with him. The ONLY reason for that was i just didn´t have time!!!
It was not a vacation where we were laying at a beach. We had a sightseeing vacation. On the go all the time. 4 kids and 2 adults in a busy city with lots of ppl. We had to keep the kids together and it was very hot and stressful. The kids didnt give us a break, fighting a lot.
So it happend that i sent a sms and then couldnt reply. It upset him a lot. He thought i was ignoring him. To be honest, he got on my nerves. One night when the usual comments came i just chose to ignore him. I had to walk away or we would have had the biggest fight.
I understand that the phone is our only communication, he wants to be a part of my daily life. Just as i want to be a part of his. But when i have the feeling that i am being controlled then i am getting rebellious. Sometimes he behaves like his fave toy is being taken away. It was just too much. I went to sleep and when i woke up i had lots of messages from him and one from teena asking what was going on. I didnt answer. I just didnt have the strenght to deal with it. I am sorry. I called Sabine cause she is the one i talk to not anybody else. He said he called teena cause she knows me and he needed a female opinion. She doesnt know me at all and i was pissed i have to say. I am very specific about with whom i talk to about my personal things.
So it came out that i just don´t love him as much as he loves me. I guess i have to live with it.
He is just to fast for me. I am still trying to answer a sms when i already get a new one from him. He is so fucking fast in typing. I am not. I do my best to satisfy his need for information. I do love him dearly although he says he doesnt think so. I AM SO SORRY!!!!
i am doing the best that i can. I love my man with all my heart and i always will. This wont break us.
Everything will be fine
Angie
The kids fought a lot and it was so hot!! Freaking hot. We tried to make the best out of it.
But i already decided to go back in october when its not so hot anymore. We saw a lot of things and we shopped. Vienna is full of tourists at this time. But seeing the beautiful architecture is so wonderful.
Now the other stress factor. It was Scott. I just knew before i went it would go sour. He said since the beginning that it will be very hard for him not to talk to me regulary. So i sent a "hello" and a " i miss you" once in a while. I couldnt have long conversations with him. The ONLY reason for that was i just didn´t have time!!!
It was not a vacation where we were laying at a beach. We had a sightseeing vacation. On the go all the time. 4 kids and 2 adults in a busy city with lots of ppl. We had to keep the kids together and it was very hot and stressful. The kids didnt give us a break, fighting a lot.
So it happend that i sent a sms and then couldnt reply. It upset him a lot. He thought i was ignoring him. To be honest, he got on my nerves. One night when the usual comments came i just chose to ignore him. I had to walk away or we would have had the biggest fight.
I understand that the phone is our only communication, he wants to be a part of my daily life. Just as i want to be a part of his. But when i have the feeling that i am being controlled then i am getting rebellious. Sometimes he behaves like his fave toy is being taken away. It was just too much. I went to sleep and when i woke up i had lots of messages from him and one from teena asking what was going on. I didnt answer. I just didnt have the strenght to deal with it. I am sorry. I called Sabine cause she is the one i talk to not anybody else. He said he called teena cause she knows me and he needed a female opinion. She doesnt know me at all and i was pissed i have to say. I am very specific about with whom i talk to about my personal things.
So it came out that i just don´t love him as much as he loves me. I guess i have to live with it.
He is just to fast for me. I am still trying to answer a sms when i already get a new one from him. He is so fucking fast in typing. I am not. I do my best to satisfy his need for information. I do love him dearly although he says he doesnt think so. I AM SO SORRY!!!!
i am doing the best that i can. I love my man with all my heart and i always will. This wont break us.
Everything will be fine
Angie
Shoes...
hmmmm....when does a woman officially have a shoe fetish? lol
Sabine says : hell no !! i don´t have one. I say : hell Yeah!!! You have one.
I admit i like to buy bags. I like shoes too but i don´t have too many. Sabine owns, hmm we just counted 25 pairs. This year she was very busy stocking up on her shoe department.
Yeah she has to be proper clothed for her job.
oh well, we women love to shop and we admit we do it with passion. Our men don´t love us less and they hand over their credit cards without a word lol.
We will count again and let u know cause now there is Sale every where !!!! hi hi
Sabine says : hell no !! i don´t have one. I say : hell Yeah!!! You have one.
I admit i like to buy bags. I like shoes too but i don´t have too many. Sabine owns, hmm we just counted 25 pairs. This year she was very busy stocking up on her shoe department.
Yeah she has to be proper clothed for her job.
oh well, we women love to shop and we admit we do it with passion. Our men don´t love us less and they hand over their credit cards without a word lol.
We will count again and let u know cause now there is Sale every where !!!! hi hi
Schuhe
Nix da, ich hab kein Schuhtick. Nein! Nein! Nein!
Und ich gebe hier auch keinen weiteren Kommentar ab über mein viel zu kleines Schuhsortiment. Und Handtaschen hab ich auch nur ein paar. Nicht mal 10. Ich bin einfach keine typische Frau! Ich wehre mich dagegen. Stimmt einfach nicht, obwohl es da anders lautende Aussagen in meinem Umfeld gibt.
Ha! Sie hat grad zugegeben, dass sie doch mehr Handtaschen hat. 1:0 für mich. Und das mit den Schuhen müssen wir noch ganz genau eruieren.
Also ich geh mal zählen. Lg Sabine
Und ich gebe hier auch keinen weiteren Kommentar ab über mein viel zu kleines Schuhsortiment. Und Handtaschen hab ich auch nur ein paar. Nicht mal 10. Ich bin einfach keine typische Frau! Ich wehre mich dagegen. Stimmt einfach nicht, obwohl es da anders lautende Aussagen in meinem Umfeld gibt.
Ha! Sie hat grad zugegeben, dass sie doch mehr Handtaschen hat. 1:0 für mich. Und das mit den Schuhen müssen wir noch ganz genau eruieren.
Also ich geh mal zählen. Lg Sabine
Whats new...
I got a mail asking what´s new with me and of course scott since we both been quiet.
Everything is going fine between us.
He is busy working and this week he has his darling kids for 4 days, wednesday till sat or sunday. Scott is keeping me busy and we grow closer as every day goes by. We are growing closer every day. We find out new things about the other partner and we get to know what we want and dont want. I havent talked about it cause i didnt wanna bore u guys with how happy we are. He is a caring, loving, charming man. And he is MY MAN!!! Yeah i am happy.
We have our ups and downs and we work it out. Thats how u do it right?
We feel lonely without each other. Simple things hurt. But it keeps us going. We enjoyed our time when he was at his mums and had time to cam with me. Seeing me on cam made him the happiest camper. So to all those who wanna see us apart, duuuhhhh.
We been busy watching Soccer. Germany is out. YEAH!! I hope Portugal makes it. Would be a nice surpise.
Friday night we leave for Vienna. My man is sad already and i havent even left yet. I hope he will be ok. We will talk, but not as much as now on a daily basis. I am so looking forward to it.
I stepped in a little broken glas piece today. I walked barefoot outside. Sabine tried to get it out but she couldnt get it. so i had to go to the doctor who kinda operated it out. My foot is ok now. Can walk again.
I wish u all a nice summer!!! We definately enjoy summer time.
Everything will be fine
Angie
Everything is going fine between us.
He is busy working and this week he has his darling kids for 4 days, wednesday till sat or sunday. Scott is keeping me busy and we grow closer as every day goes by. We are growing closer every day. We find out new things about the other partner and we get to know what we want and dont want. I havent talked about it cause i didnt wanna bore u guys with how happy we are. He is a caring, loving, charming man. And he is MY MAN!!! Yeah i am happy.
We have our ups and downs and we work it out. Thats how u do it right?
We feel lonely without each other. Simple things hurt. But it keeps us going. We enjoyed our time when he was at his mums and had time to cam with me. Seeing me on cam made him the happiest camper. So to all those who wanna see us apart, duuuhhhh.
We been busy watching Soccer. Germany is out. YEAH!! I hope Portugal makes it. Would be a nice surpise.
Friday night we leave for Vienna. My man is sad already and i havent even left yet. I hope he will be ok. We will talk, but not as much as now on a daily basis. I am so looking forward to it.
I stepped in a little broken glas piece today. I walked barefoot outside. Sabine tried to get it out but she couldnt get it. so i had to go to the doctor who kinda operated it out. My foot is ok now. Can walk again.
I wish u all a nice summer!!! We definately enjoy summer time.
Everything will be fine
Angie
Summerrrr.............
Summer is here !!!! It´s been so hot. But hey i finally got a nice tan. lol
Been swimming a lot and we enjoy sitting outside till its dark.
Today i listended to Blue, my man bought me their CD ( yeah its a boyband and yeah u can laugh) , and i sang to my fave song:
U make me wanna
To start it off
I know you know me
To come to think of it,
it was only last week.
That I had a dream about us, oh.
That's why I am here,
I'm writing this song.
To tell the truth
you know I have been hurting all along
,Someway let me know, you want me girl.
Everytime you see me what do you see?
I feel like I'm a poor man and you're the queen.
Oh baby, you're the only thing that I really need.
Baby that's why:
You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night
You make me wanna hold you till the morning light.
You make me wanna love,
you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.
I know this is a feeling that I just can't fight.
You're the first and last thing on my mind.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.
Well I know that these feelings won't end no, no.
They'll just get stronger if I see you again.
Baby I'm tired of being friends.
I wanna know if you feel the same
And could you tell me do you feel my pain?
Don't leave me in doubt.
Everytime you see me what do you see?
I feel like I'm a poor man and you're the queen.
Oh baby, you're the only thing that I really need.
And baby that's why:
I'll take you home real quick
And sit you down on the couch
Pour some Dom Perignon and hit the lights out
.Baby we can make sweet love.
Then we'll take it nice and slow.
I'm gonna touch you like you've never know before
We're gonna make love all night.
You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night.
You make me wanna hold you till the morning light.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.
I know this is a feeling that I just can't fight.
You're the first and last thing on my mind
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.
Been swimming a lot and we enjoy sitting outside till its dark.
Today i listended to Blue, my man bought me their CD ( yeah its a boyband and yeah u can laugh) , and i sang to my fave song:
U make me wanna
To start it off
I know you know me
To come to think of it,
it was only last week.
That I had a dream about us, oh.
That's why I am here,
I'm writing this song.
To tell the truth
you know I have been hurting all along
,Someway let me know, you want me girl.
Everytime you see me what do you see?
I feel like I'm a poor man and you're the queen.
Oh baby, you're the only thing that I really need.
Baby that's why:
You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night
You make me wanna hold you till the morning light.
You make me wanna love,
you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.
I know this is a feeling that I just can't fight.
You're the first and last thing on my mind.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.
Well I know that these feelings won't end no, no.
They'll just get stronger if I see you again.
Baby I'm tired of being friends.
I wanna know if you feel the same
And could you tell me do you feel my pain?
Don't leave me in doubt.
Everytime you see me what do you see?
I feel like I'm a poor man and you're the queen.
Oh baby, you're the only thing that I really need.
And baby that's why:
I'll take you home real quick
And sit you down on the couch
Pour some Dom Perignon and hit the lights out
.Baby we can make sweet love.
Then we'll take it nice and slow.
I'm gonna touch you like you've never know before
We're gonna make love all night.
You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night.
You make me wanna hold you till the morning light.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.
I know this is a feeling that I just can't fight.
You're the first and last thing on my mind
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.
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