I'm Back

Hey Guys. I'm back. Sorry I have been away so long. been busy working. trying to spend as much time with me kids as possible. Need to make more of an effort to call them. I just get so tired travelling all the time, getting up early, coming home late. Dont even know what day it is sometimes. I miss the kids heaps. I get upset sometimes when I do see them cause they are growin up so fast. It is Mitchells fourth birthday today. Lucky boy got a quad bike and toy trucks amongst other things. The quad bike is real, just to clarify.
Olivia even has a motorbike, and she is quite the natural I hear. she has only fallen off once and got straight back on. Makes me wanna cry. My little girl is growing up. so is me boy.
And yes. I did manage to upset Angie. Wont go into details, but once again I managed to upset her. Fair Dinkum. I think I manage to piss her off too easily. I dont have to try real hard. but I did it. its all good. She still loves me and I better say I love her too, otherwise.... you know... ( I might upset her again ) just kidding Angel. I do love you. You know it. There are some things that annoy me.... but in order to keep the peace. I bite my tongue. I deal with it. Noone is perfect. I cant expect Angie to be like me all the time......That is another joke. you can use that one too. I better run. Spending time with my brother. Gotta get some sleep too. Have to work tomorrow.
Be good everyone. talk to you all again soon.
Hooroo.... Scotty. A.K.A. Madness

Tell me why i don´t like mondays...

Monday, shezzzeeee. But the day is almost over. Good thing. Talking to Scott.
Today is mitchells bday. Scotts son.


and also my friends thomas bday! HAPPY BDAY TO HIM TOO!

Saturday is Sylvias Bday.

Happy bday to her!!!

pheww. who did i forget? Happy bday to all the ppl i forgot!


saturday evening. day started not so good. had an arguement with scott. he apologised and i believed him. i just hoped he understood my point of view too.i tried to make him understand. it doesn´t work to say " sorry" real fast to shut me up. NO!

i won´t get into the reason of the arguement. He knows what i am talking about. And NO scott. i was not upset, just hurt. but it´s all good.

Pj is in a strange mood today. He sounded very, well moody, pissed? not in talking mood. he said he didnt sleep in a long time. oh my. Go to bed lah!!!
hope u feeling better next time we talk.

The bathtub is calling my name...

It´s friday evening, a long day over. Finally home. I can hear the bathtub calling my name. yeah ...i am coming.

Scott is working. poor guy. Miss him much.

A nice day...

What a nice day. Spent a lot of money though. We had a nice afternoon shopping. Bought a lot of things for julia. Sabine and me had fun. We found her a nice pair of shoes for the ball she will go to. Talked a lot to Scott.

Right now i am on the phone with Pj. Yuhuuuuuu.

Hey guys...try a little tenderness

She may be weary
Women do get weary
Wearing the same shabby dress
And when she's weary
Try a little tenderness!!

Uuh she may be waiting
Just anticipating
Things she may never possess
And while she's without them
Try a little tenderness!!

It's not just sentimental
She has her grief
And her care
But a word So soft and gentle
Makes it easierTo bear

You won't regret it
Women don't forget it
Love is their whole happiness
And it's all so easy
Try a little tenderness!!

But a word
Soft and gentle
Makes it easier To bear
You won't regret it
Women don't forget it
Love is their whole happiness
And it's all so easy
Just try a little tenderness

You've gotta try
You've gotta hold her
You've got to sceeze her
You have to try
You've got to try
And always please her

You won't regret it
You won't regret it
Oh, try a little tenderness!!

Speaking of friends...

Speaking of friends...

A big thank you...

to Andi, Byron and Manfred for being there beside me
last sunday.
I felt u walking that road with me!


The thing that counts most
in the pursuit of hapiness
is choosing
the right traveling companion.

Yes! Finally it´s not so cold anymore !! It´ll begin to snow again tonight. I love it when it snows.
I am really looking forward to waking up tomorrow morning and see all the new snow.

First thing i do everyday when i get home in the evening, is to light candles. I love that romantic setting.

Scott is a happy bloke, he spent his free days with his kids. He is such a passionate father. It´s fun to see him with his kids. He seems to establish a good relationship with julia too. Gets me in troubles sometimes though when she talks too much !
Uh huh, i know Scott !! LOL
I can clearly hear him say: Angie ! Are u hiding something?

Hmmm, since some time i have this feeling that my best friend is having a little thing going with a friend of hers.But what can i say. it´s probably nothing.Ppl think that andi and me have one too. Quite funny.Do ppl think the same as I? It´s not just that they chat or he comes over a lot. I mean Andi and me are close too and ppl still see us having an affair. But we DON´T!!
It´s just little thing, backing away from her when ppl enter the room, take the arm off her. I don´t remember Andi doing that. Why do that if u are doing nothing wrong?
I don´t wanna miss his hugs and warmth.

Well, she is a wonderful friend and i don´t care if she is actually doing it. I am keeping it all to myself and love her anyways. She´s a dear friend to me.

Oh oh, that reminds me of something. Met my ex a few days back.
The guy i left to be with Scott. He was, or still is such a nice guy. Still looking handsome.
He invited me to a cup of coffee. And i agreed. It turned out to be a nice afternoon. We laughed a lot. And i was so glad to see him happy. I´ve broke his heart. But he seems to be ok with me now.
We agreed to have dinner sometime. I am so glad that we can talk again.


Another summer day
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
?I'm fine baby, how are you??
Well I would send them but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aerorplane
Another sunny place
I'm lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I've got to go home

Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believe in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby, I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all right
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home

A little present for Angie

Hallo Andi...

Willkommen Andi! Hoffentlich bischt net zu schockiert! Aber es ischt eh alles ok. Überlies oafach was net über mi wissa willscht. I benutz net min richtiga nama, sondern angie. Wenn mir eppas hinterloascht denn bitte oh net mit andi. Es seand a paar verruckte immer uf mina sita, a ex freundin vom Scott dia blödsinn readet and scheisse baut. einfach ignoriera. Behalt für di was do liescht bitte. und gib dia adress vo da sita net witer.

Bussi ufs bauchi, han di gern.

Made it through the day...

I made it through the day. I am proud of myself. Although i am sitting here crying. I made it!!! It´s good to have friends around you. Who are there for you and comfort you. thanks also to andi who asked me what the stuff is all about on my blog and requested the addy to read it. OH my, gotta behave now.

Thanks to Teena. She sent me a lovely email. I am very sorry about your mom. But i guess just ppl who went through all this can relate huh Teena? So many words coming our way but just a few heal.

Julia says...

meine beste freundinnen sind sara,tabita,vannesa,sarah,sabrina.wir sind fast immer zusammen.und erfinden verrückte sachen. wir sind schulfreundinnen.

1 year

it´s saturday. Freezing cold outside. Still have my cold. I wanna eat.
Took a long bath, but it didn´t help too much. Julia is out with her friend.
Scott is sending me loving messages all day. He is worried about me.
He feels helpless, wants to be comforting me.
I would lie if i´d say that wouldn´t help me heaps.
I am missing him so much.

Today i forced myself to talk to my sister. I had to. I don´t feel like
having anything to do with her right now. I feel left alone by my mom.
My friend always said to let it all out, or i´ll break down sooner or later.
Well i didn´t. But i am afraid i am close to can´t holding it back anymore.

Tomorrow it´s gonna be 1 year that she died.
It was a saturday. We had guests for dinner. Around, oh i don´t remember for sure, 6:30pm i got a call from the hospital. I never thought it would be so bad. Afterwards i knew she was already dead when i got the call. I rushed there. I remember walking down to the room and nurses coming up to me saying how sorry they were. I said, no no. No, thats not what i wanted to hear. It can´t be true.
I broke down but refused getting a shot to calm down. I wanted to be there. I can still her. Laying there. I remember Andi behind me. Holding me. I functioned like a robot from then on. Tomorrow i agreed to go to her grave. Julia hasn´t been there. Andi will be there. Probably pushing me, or not? I don´t wanna go. I know my mom understands it.She is always with me.


hello everybody!!!

such a pleasure to come to this blog now. i love it pj.too bad the guest book isnt there anymore and the tag. but i understand your decision. its all good pj.

just spent some time chatting with bruce. poor guy, broke his jaw. well, damn damn. dangerous job he has, but he must look good in his police uniform.
well we had a nice chat.

i am tired. need to go to sleep.
i wanna say hello to teena too.
oh man, my brain empty. need sleeeeeppppp!!!!

feel crappy cause its been 1 year that my mom has died. am exhausted, physically and emotionally.
but scott is there for me. i didnt let him. i hope he wasnt pissed at me. i choose andi to comfort me. but scott loves me enough to handle that.

night everyone

Ha Ha

Hey Guys. Well this is what this blogger should be all about. Not a page to voice crap about nothing. Thank you PJ for disabling the guest book and the tag. Sorry to those people who cannot make a genuine comment but some people just ruin it for everyone. Well now you can come in and read about us, and not about things that don't matter. This is Angies Blogger. She deserves the right to chose what she wants and what she doesn't want in here and thats it. You dont like whats in here....Dont come in here. Simple. Or, better still. Create your own blog. Slag me as much as you want. I dont care. as far as I can see, the person who is creating all this drama is jealous. You cant have me, so no one can. Just leave us alone okay?? Mind your own business. Concentrate on your own life. Stop tryin to crap in ours. Anyway. Thank you to PJ once again. This site is lookig totally awesome now. Better run. Talk to you all soon. Hooroo.
Scotty... a.k.a Madness

nice shoutbox we have..

i really love to see the shoutbox now.. isnt it nice and peaceful aye? wow.. i wonder wut these ppl are sayin.. oh forget it i dont wanna..

this is a very small example of the extent to which real pathetic people would go through to proof their idiocy... it's almost embarassing..

Vanessa: PJ you poofster you are pathetic!! good try
Lolly: lol the fag thinks we dont know how to highlight the white font so we can read it

He is not so sure about that anymore

Now here we go. Scott and me talked about that song. He meant it´s cool and it´s what he would say. But then he thought about it and changed his mind. He is so cute.

He doesn´t want me to dance with another guy and hold his hand underneath pale moonlight. Darn. Almost got away with it. LOL.

Oh well i tried. NO, just kidding. I wouldn´t do that anyways. He is afraid about the competition over here. Scotty!!! Who cares that he likes me, my feelings count, don´t u think so?? U don´t need to feel bad. I love you, not him!
Michael Bubles music is so wonderful. Listening to it as much as i can. I can relax to it and clear my mind. "baby dont u know i love u so, can´t u feel it when we touch?"

I recieved a nice email of one of scottys friends. Thank you Teena. Hope to meet u soon.

Save the last dance for me

"Save The Last Dance For Me"

You can dance-every dance with the guy
Who gives you the eye,
let him hold you tight
You can smile-every smile for the man
Who held your hand neath the pale moon light
But don't forget who's takin' you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darlin' save the last dance for me

Oh I know that the music's fine
Like sparklin' wine,
go and have your fun
Laugh and sing,but while we're apart
Don't give your heart to anyone

But don't forget who's takin' you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darlin' save the last dance for me

Baby don't you know I love you so
Can't you feel it when we touch
I will never never let you go
I love you oh so much

You can dance,go and carry on
Till the night is gone
And it's time to go
If he asks if you're all alone
Can he walk you home,you must tell him no

'Cause don't forget who's taking you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darling,save the last dance for me

'Cause don't forget who's taking you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darling,save the last dance for me
Save the last dance for me
Save the last dance for me.


I like the green Pj. But the song is too boring babe. My friend said, this blog is not like u at all ange!
It doesn´t say Angie at all.

yada yada

So So So. It´s yada yada. Went to pj´s blog and read a bit. yada yada. so how am i suppose to understand that Pj??? AAAAAwwwww. i don´t get mad at u easily. Common. Only Scott can call me a bitch. LOL. And i can see u still don´t trust him. Well u have to let me make my own mistakes huh? And if he fucks it up again he is the one loosing. And he knows it. He is making everything, really everything to keep me happy. Hell, he just sent me perfume, my fave one, from australia.
We have our 1 year anniversary soon. We´ve been surviving for 11 months now. Cool huh?
We survived a lot of things. The funniest one is this Vanessa/Karen thing. Damn i miss being cursed by her. Sniff sniff.LOL. It will all turn out fine.

Scott was afraid i will fall for it and leave him. Nah. That would be cruel to him after all that he has gone through to be with me. This issue is not one that will break us apart.

He spends his time and money on me. I can be sure i am the only one on his mind.
So all the ppl who contact me, it´s really nothing. It´s all good. This wont part us. And we will see what the future brings.
I love this man.

bare with me.. heheh

well yeah here we go people.. angie told me she wants a makeover.. none fancy im fcukin' rusty but hey wtf, let's move on with it aye.. in the meantime maybe there be glitches here and there aye so yeah, bear wif it.. we workit a bit aight.. you guys can go on squabbling btw.. dont mind me.. i dont relly give a fuck.. but scott, karen, is that her name... owh fuck forget it i have no idea wats goin on anyway. wtf

I called honey on the fon earlier the evening, i coulda sworn she mentioned michael buble and the song is "you and me"..? a cover of lifehouse's "you and me"?? i couldnt find that.. but i did get michael buble on "you belong to me" and that is a cover of bob dylan's.. so now im confused.. which one aye.. well anyway methinks it must be michael buble on "you belong to me" so i'll put it here 1st and move to other things for a bit..