so he swears he is not lying... my gut feeling against his words... he swears up and down... he says this is not like me... i never had this feeling all this time we have been together... but i dreamt that night of him and her and when i woke up i had a tummy pain all day long... nervous... somethings wrong... he is lying... he is not being truthful when it comes to her... but why would he lie?... he is a free man... he is not cheating on me... i just dont wanna be lied to!!!!!!
I JUST DONT WANNA BE LIED TO !!!!
He said I'm worth it, his one desire
I know things about him that you wouldn't wanna read about
He kissed me, his one only,
beautiful Liar!
Tell me how you tolerate the the things you just found out about...
You never know
Why are we the ones who suffer
I have to let go
He won't be the one to cry ...
You never know,
when the pain and heartbreak's over
I have to let go
The innocence is gone ...
believe him? Nah...
have a good weekend everyone...
everything will be fine
Ange
ohhh...
i have so many strong feeling right now... and i feel free... it hurts but it helps me to free me from him.. every shit he pulls and actions he does it frees me... he doesnt know but he helps me with this...
Never again by Kelly Clarkson...
what else... schools end almost here... lots of work... lots of meetings... everybody wants to hold one before summer vacation starts... sabine is doing better and we are stronger than ever... every thing else will fall into place...
you guys have a good weekend ahead...
everything will be fine..
Ange
Never again by Kelly Clarkson...
what else... schools end almost here... lots of work... lots of meetings... everybody wants to hold one before summer vacation starts... sabine is doing better and we are stronger than ever... every thing else will fall into place...
you guys have a good weekend ahead...
everything will be fine..
Ange
Never again....
this song... i feel like that right now... hear this mr. missen... and i mean it...go on have meaningless relationships... love affairs... hope that makes you happy....
I hope the ring you gave to her Turns her finger green.
I hope when you're in bed with her,
You think of me.
I would never wish bad things,But I don't wish you well.
Could you tell 'bout the flames that burned your words?
Does it hurt to know I'll never be there?
Bet it sucks to see my face everywhere.
It was you who chose to end it like you did.
I was the last to know
You knew exactly what you would do.
Don’t say you simply lost your way.
She may believe you.
But I never will
Never again!
Here's the thing We started out friends
It was cool, but it was all pretend
You're dedicated, you took the time
Wasn't long 'til I called you mine
And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I picture me with you
That's all you'd ever hear me say.
You had your chance, you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth, I just can't take it
Again and again and again and again
you lost me... for real...you made your bed and now lay in it... hope she gives you what u need... bye bye scott
I hope the ring you gave to her Turns her finger green.
I hope when you're in bed with her,
You think of me.
I would never wish bad things,But I don't wish you well.
Could you tell 'bout the flames that burned your words?
Does it hurt to know I'll never be there?
Bet it sucks to see my face everywhere.
It was you who chose to end it like you did.
I was the last to know
You knew exactly what you would do.
Don’t say you simply lost your way.
She may believe you.
But I never will
Never again!
Here's the thing We started out friends
It was cool, but it was all pretend
You're dedicated, you took the time
Wasn't long 'til I called you mine
And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I picture me with you
That's all you'd ever hear me say.
You had your chance, you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth, I just can't take it
Again and again and again and again
you lost me... for real...you made your bed and now lay in it... hope she gives you what u need... bye bye scott
still alive...
yup i am still alive... sorry i have been neglecting you my faithful readers... i just feel so tired and empty lately... lots of reasons... the one u intersted in is probably Scott...
i just dont know what to do... well i guess i do know what i should do... we talked again a little while ago... and he asked me why i love him... i told him... i asked him why he loves me... he said cause i never gave up on him... yeah he is right.... he is used to me being there... even when he screwed up... i was there... once i got him home from a bench at the train station when he was rotten drunk... from the other side of the world... i did such things for him... dont get me wrong... we both had our moods and he had his fits... but we never gave up...
i asked him if he thinks we would have lasted that long if we were actually together... i doubted that and he was upset and said of course... that was always his answer... it will be different when we are together... IT WILL BE DIFFERENT ONCE WE ARE TOGETHER...
so he tells me he wants to tell me something... my heart goes boom... i wasnt prepared for what i heard... he met someone else... he told her he loves her and he wanted to be with her... have a relationship... it didnt work out cause she went back to her abusive ex... WTF... why did he tell me that?.. yeah cause he wanted to let me know what he has been up to....
i guess my silence told him that he hurt me... or did he know?... he said he didnt love her... common... you dont wanna have a relationship with someone u dont love! am i an idiot?...
then he says me being with tom made him want to move on too... Hell no!!! i had a few dated... i never had a relationship... dont use me for a reason... gosh....
who is this man?? this is not scott... and if this is scott... damned... i mean i understand if he needed somebody to hold...
but dont fucking lie to me and say u dont have feelings for her !!!!!!!!!!!
I KNOW U HAVE FUCKING FEELINGS FOR HER... dont tell me you dont!
u tell me u regret not being with me anymore... but you know what guys...i wouldnt take him back right now... not like this... i am in no danger to fall for him again... i love him .. yes...
but i am not his toy... it hurt him to know about tom? well tough luck... i never told tom i loved him...
i cannot have a relationship while i still love scott... something is going very wrong here...
the first time i feel scott is lying to me... betraying... not telling whats going on... i feel like i am plan B... i know u out there online and i know u tell her u miss her and u love her... i feel that...
its the feeling i have the last few days... not a "I miss Scott" feeling... i havent had that in a long time... its a "something is going on and he wont tell me" feeling...
Never again will I hear you.
Never again will I miss you.
Never again will I fall to you.
Never.
Never again will I kiss you.
Never again will I want to.
Never again will I love you.
Never!
i just dont know what to do... well i guess i do know what i should do... we talked again a little while ago... and he asked me why i love him... i told him... i asked him why he loves me... he said cause i never gave up on him... yeah he is right.... he is used to me being there... even when he screwed up... i was there... once i got him home from a bench at the train station when he was rotten drunk... from the other side of the world... i did such things for him... dont get me wrong... we both had our moods and he had his fits... but we never gave up...
i asked him if he thinks we would have lasted that long if we were actually together... i doubted that and he was upset and said of course... that was always his answer... it will be different when we are together... IT WILL BE DIFFERENT ONCE WE ARE TOGETHER...
so he tells me he wants to tell me something... my heart goes boom... i wasnt prepared for what i heard... he met someone else... he told her he loves her and he wanted to be with her... have a relationship... it didnt work out cause she went back to her abusive ex... WTF... why did he tell me that?.. yeah cause he wanted to let me know what he has been up to....
i guess my silence told him that he hurt me... or did he know?... he said he didnt love her... common... you dont wanna have a relationship with someone u dont love! am i an idiot?...
then he says me being with tom made him want to move on too... Hell no!!! i had a few dated... i never had a relationship... dont use me for a reason... gosh....
who is this man?? this is not scott... and if this is scott... damned... i mean i understand if he needed somebody to hold...
but dont fucking lie to me and say u dont have feelings for her !!!!!!!!!!!
I KNOW U HAVE FUCKING FEELINGS FOR HER... dont tell me you dont!
u tell me u regret not being with me anymore... but you know what guys...i wouldnt take him back right now... not like this... i am in no danger to fall for him again... i love him .. yes...
but i am not his toy... it hurt him to know about tom? well tough luck... i never told tom i loved him...
i cannot have a relationship while i still love scott... something is going very wrong here...
the first time i feel scott is lying to me... betraying... not telling whats going on... i feel like i am plan B... i know u out there online and i know u tell her u miss her and u love her... i feel that...
its the feeling i have the last few days... not a "I miss Scott" feeling... i havent had that in a long time... its a "something is going on and he wont tell me" feeling...
Never again will I hear you.
Never again will I miss you.
Never again will I fall to you.
Never.
Never again will I kiss you.
Never again will I want to.
Never again will I love you.
Never!
days go on...
i am so tired lately... something is going on with me... i don´t feel the same... i don´t even know what i should blog about... brain empty... there is this sadness i feel... i know today i miss scott... one of these days... i am trying to send the feelings back to him... accept the feelings and send them back... i am going out... but i don´t feel like jumping into a relationship with a new guy... i need time to heal... sometimes i wish he would have treated me bad or been unfaithful... then i could hate him and it would make it easier to walk away...but he did nothing wrong... gosh... he messaged me last week... we had a short conversation and he apologised a few times for the pain he caused me or is causing... SEE??!!... can´t you be an idiot? or a guy who is sleeping around? .... :-(
i will find something more
someone i am made for
shame on you baby !!!
Forever yours....!!
i will find something more
someone i am made for
shame on you baby !!!
Forever yours....!!
Sami...
Sami... another topic... he has a shitty timing too... he contacted me and wanted me to come see him in paris... " i don´t have time for ya but i want to see you in paris!" ...yeah right...
so he said he will come to austria... he wants to spend a few quiet days with me... grrrr.... you know... i could be a coldhearted bitch and marry him... enough money for a lifetime... but i can´t just do it... will i spend time with him? i will see... i know it´s gonna kill scott... he doesn´t like him...i haven´t forgive him either... too much happend...will it be ok for him to just spoil me?
i could use a few new things... hmmm....
so he said he will come to austria... he wants to spend a few quiet days with me... grrrr.... you know... i could be a coldhearted bitch and marry him... enough money for a lifetime... but i can´t just do it... will i spend time with him? i will see... i know it´s gonna kill scott... he doesn´t like him...i haven´t forgive him either... too much happend...will it be ok for him to just spoil me?
i could use a few new things... hmmm....
Hello.....
hello to ya all... sorry i haven´t been on so much... been quite busy... i have read through my emails and well... i know i still have to finish the story from ange and scott... i know i said i will never mention his name again... but i will make an exeption...
the day... the very same day i decided i will go out on a date he messages me... " i miss you "... yeah... after the silence he picked that day... can you believe it? how does that man do it? How?... gosh... but... i still went on that date... yeah... i had a good time... and i enjoyed it... he tried to call me a few times... but i left my phone with sabine... i just knew he would... but his motive? i wasn´t sure... i won´t go into more details but what i got out of it... i will be over him... he is making it easy for me... "i will always love you" yeah... whitney houston sang that too... did it help her? lol... life goes on... sabine and me are on our way out of our heartaches... and there are so many good looking guys out there... and when we are tempted to get weak and wanting to contact the cause of our heartaches... we take each others phone...
today there was a train accident in australia... i was concerned and i had sabine message him... not myself... he answered her and i know he is fine... so... that´s how we do it ... yayyy
i threw everything away... his flowers... pics... letters... his messages... even erased his phonenumber... and i am doing fine...
he can go out and have meaningless affairs or relationships... I KNOW YOU ARE LIVING A LIE! you know what makes you happy...you know where it is...go on ... live a lie...
the day... the very same day i decided i will go out on a date he messages me... " i miss you "... yeah... after the silence he picked that day... can you believe it? how does that man do it? How?... gosh... but... i still went on that date... yeah... i had a good time... and i enjoyed it... he tried to call me a few times... but i left my phone with sabine... i just knew he would... but his motive? i wasn´t sure... i won´t go into more details but what i got out of it... i will be over him... he is making it easy for me... "i will always love you" yeah... whitney houston sang that too... did it help her? lol... life goes on... sabine and me are on our way out of our heartaches... and there are so many good looking guys out there... and when we are tempted to get weak and wanting to contact the cause of our heartaches... we take each others phone...
today there was a train accident in australia... i was concerned and i had sabine message him... not myself... he answered her and i know he is fine... so... that´s how we do it ... yayyy
i threw everything away... his flowers... pics... letters... his messages... even erased his phonenumber... and i am doing fine...
he can go out and have meaningless affairs or relationships... I KNOW YOU ARE LIVING A LIE! you know what makes you happy...you know where it is...go on ... live a lie...
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