Brians call at 2 am.....

heeeeeeeeeeeeya allllllllll !!!!!!!!! happy new year! did u celebrate good? safe? lol
well i am almost sober again! we had a fab time... i enjoyed sliding into the new year with my fave people! (missed u aims!!!!) we laughed so hard at manfred that my makeup was gone at 10 pm already ....... oh my god he cracked me up!

we got safely into the new year........ and then.... everybody was gone... julia in bed.... cleaning up the mess.... i got undressed and got comfty on the sofa to watch some more tv...... my phone rang ...... errrrrr

Brian.... uh oh...... i didnt send him a message to wish a happy new year.... i simply forgot.... i chose to answer.... hell yeah he hasnt called me since.......well since i spent some time in vienna with my doctor....... oh ok here we go
i was so happy to hear his voice..... gave me a warm feeling..... instantly... i was so happy but i didnt want him to know that... yup i tried to sound cool lol

then he surprised me.... he told me things he wanted to say such a long time ago... he opened himself to me... i was really positively surprised!
i did hope i sounded sober lol... but he wasnt sober either... another halfdrunk call hmmmm

then he said ......... "i want u to be there when i come home.... i want u to be there..... "
oh wow .... goosebumbs
"what are we gonna do angie?"........ " so u really love me angie?"
so he decides to have that conversation now...... at 2 am .... both being drunk... that can only go wrong can it?
i tried my best to tell him how i feel... what i want.... he tells me things that i wanted to hear for so long ... and it was so wonderful to hear them ... and i knew they came from his heart... he kinda poured his heart out and i appreciated it very much.... i felt so much love for that man
and then it went sour........ i felt that he thinks that i can make his life better.....yeah i can... well wrongly put... i feel that seeing and being with me will change it all.... well how can i put it.... hmmm... i felt so much pressure on me right that second... to make it all good for him.... and i tried to tell him... thats when he said sorry and hung up on me...... grrrrrrrrr i hate when he does that... i couldnt even explain myself....

i have to sort my thoughts..............
Seify is disturbing me on msn.........seify shut up!!!!!!!!!! no u cant see the pics! lol..... the message box is blinking and blinking lol...........

everybody have a good relaxing day!
everything will be fine
Angie