time : 9:40 pm
wearing : black pants and beige top
missing : Brian
listening to : Jason Mraz ... http://de.youtube.com/watch?v=qKZQXnmbCxk
drinking : Baccardi breezer
talking online to : Mick ;)
last talked on phone to: Silke
last laughed with : Marianne, she cracks me up really!
today at lunch i cooked : noodles with tuna
cried last : a few minutes ago.... feeling the pain of brian not talking to me
i smell like : sun, moon, stars from Lagerfeld
tonight i will : fall asleep with the voice of Jason Mraz
i am looking forward to: Sabine coming back from Italy
tomorrow i have to : go buy tampons lol
i wanna: drink a glas of wine on the balcony with Andi! i miss him!!
i last cuddled with : Julia.......i love her so much!
Happy birthday!
Happy birthday to my dear friend Sabine!
she has her birthday tomorrow and hey......lets get rotten drunk ( since Afschin deserted me! how can he not come see me and rather work? lol ) somehow i feel like doing that lol.
its 38 yay!!!
love and i am proud of you!
just because he doesnt love u the way u want him to... doesnt mean he doesnt love u at all....right?
Brian....... there is so much inside of me that wants to come out but i dont know if i can find the right words.
i guess life just played us a prank. it was going too well. i had a slap in my face and brian too.
now i end up here caring but getting nothing back.
i reached out to him yesterday- and i really thought a lot about asking him- and he promised he would call at night.
someway deep inside i had the feeling he wouldnt.
but what came then was a surprise.
he messaged me in the afternoon asking about my flirt with cameron.
and why he should call.
cause of ME brian!!!
i was confused... why that sudden emotions? i felt he was looking for an excuse to not talk to me.
he could have said no. i would have accepted it too.
he thought all the new added girls on his list are bothering me.
didnt he see my growing friends list?
i always trusted him. why this behavour now?
he told me he deleted them all.... i never asked him to do that.
i am confused and dont know what i should think.
i just wanted to talk to him about something very important to me.
i asked him if he could just be there for me that once.
i know he is having a hard time.
i am worried that he is heading towards a burnout.
i try my best to be what he needs. but does he need me?
i flirt ..yeah. but not to hurt him. it never bothered him before. did i cross a line?
i guess life just played us a prank. it was going too well. i had a slap in my face and brian too.
now i end up here caring but getting nothing back.
i reached out to him yesterday- and i really thought a lot about asking him- and he promised he would call at night.
someway deep inside i had the feeling he wouldnt.
but what came then was a surprise.
he messaged me in the afternoon asking about my flirt with cameron.
and why he should call.
cause of ME brian!!!
i was confused... why that sudden emotions? i felt he was looking for an excuse to not talk to me.
he could have said no. i would have accepted it too.
he thought all the new added girls on his list are bothering me.
didnt he see my growing friends list?
i always trusted him. why this behavour now?
he told me he deleted them all.... i never asked him to do that.
i am confused and dont know what i should think.
i just wanted to talk to him about something very important to me.
i asked him if he could just be there for me that once.
i know he is having a hard time.
i am worried that he is heading towards a burnout.
i try my best to be what he needs. but does he need me?
i flirt ..yeah. but not to hurt him. it never bothered him before. did i cross a line?
tagged.....oh i forgot....
i came across my tagged account... oh man i forgot lol
so many nice messages in my inbox.... make me laugh so hard each time i read them...
Hello How are you today,
I hope all is well with you .I am sorry to worry you with my Proposal for a relationship with you, but I know that you will grant my request in good faith and understanding,
My name is Ebony B , I just went Through your profile at I have no options than letting you Know that I am interested in having a relationship with you,
I will also like to Know you the more,
you can add me in ur yahoo or msn so dat we can chat online nd to see our self on cam so that I can send you more details about my self Including my picture. I believe we can move from here.
But bear in mind that Love has no colors barrier, no educational back ground barrier, no socio-economic Barrier, religious, language, nationality or distance barrier, the only important Thing there is love. I am waiting to see u online for u to add me with my email address above. Yours Sincerely ..... Ebony
m ,,,so amazed ,,,i didnt no angels still live on earth..until i saw ur pics and profile ,,,ur wonderfullly looking ,,,,u look so gentle ,,and nice ,,,i guess ur a person of gud entity and character,,,and i do guess u willl be a person wit gud character and self respect ,,,how i wish it will be posible i get to chat wit u on msn or yahooo ....do u have one???i no u do ,,,,pls do send ur chat ID ...lets get to talk ....lots of respect and kisses... walter
oh i feel so loved and wanted.... i am the best! sighhhh
gotta rush back to my inbox.....me the greatest most beautiful one lol he he
so many nice messages in my inbox.... make me laugh so hard each time i read them...
Hello How are you today,
I hope all is well with you .I am sorry to worry you with my Proposal for a relationship with you, but I know that you will grant my request in good faith and understanding,
My name is Ebony B , I just went Through your profile at I have no options than letting you Know that I am interested in having a relationship with you,
I will also like to Know you the more,
you can add me in ur yahoo or msn so dat we can chat online nd to see our self on cam so that I can send you more details about my self Including my picture. I believe we can move from here.
But bear in mind that Love has no colors barrier, no educational back ground barrier, no socio-economic Barrier, religious, language, nationality or distance barrier, the only important Thing there is love. I am waiting to see u online for u to add me with my email address above. Yours Sincerely ..... Ebony
m ,,,so amazed ,,,i didnt no angels still live on earth..until i saw ur pics and profile ,,,ur wonderfullly looking ,,,,u look so gentle ,,and nice ,,,i guess ur a person of gud entity and character,,,and i do guess u willl be a person wit gud character and self respect ,,,how i wish it will be posible i get to chat wit u on msn or yahooo ....do u have one???i no u do ,,,,pls do send ur chat ID ...lets get to talk ....lots of respect and kisses... walter
oh i feel so loved and wanted.... i am the best! sighhhh
gotta rush back to my inbox.....me the greatest most beautiful one lol he he
full moon on saturday....
there was a full moon on saturday.... and a moon darkness too.
sabine messaged me and so i went out on my balcony to watch it.
i messaged some people too and got settled outside wrapped in my blanket and listening to music on my mp3.
looking at the moon and hearing certain music got me in a romantic mood.
i heard Chaka sing and i thought of Marcus who i know now likes her too.
hearing Sasha sing made me miss........ yeah brian.
i messaged him too. wondering if he was looking at the same .
but as usual silence from him.
its getting to be really hard for me.
he asked me to hold on and i promised i would.
so i am holding on........
sabine messaged me and so i went out on my balcony to watch it.
i messaged some people too and got settled outside wrapped in my blanket and listening to music on my mp3.
looking at the moon and hearing certain music got me in a romantic mood.
i heard Chaka sing and i thought of Marcus who i know now likes her too.
hearing Sasha sing made me miss........ yeah brian.
i messaged him too. wondering if he was looking at the same .
but as usual silence from him.
its getting to be really hard for me.
he asked me to hold on and i promised i would.
so i am holding on........
sunday.....
oh man.... what a terrible afternoon.... cant even start to describe what pissed me off more.... i wont even bother u with all the details... but i survived it.....yay for me
i did send a message to brian that i could really need him right then.... :(
i did send a message to brian that i could really need him right then.... :(
still alive ;)
hey ya all....yeah i am still alive!!!
i got the messages and mails asking where the heck i am :P
i am hereeeeeeeeeee!!! he he
so many things happened and i thought about coming on and writing but then i just couldnt be bothered... so i hope u all will forgive me!
but as always i am so happy to still have so many faithful readers that miss me when i dont blog regularly!
THANK YOU ALL!!!
i got the messages and mails asking where the heck i am :P
i am hereeeeeeeeeee!!! he he
so many things happened and i thought about coming on and writing but then i just couldnt be bothered... so i hope u all will forgive me!
but as always i am so happy to still have so many faithful readers that miss me when i dont blog regularly!
THANK YOU ALL!!!
addicted to jason mraz songs.....
finally i have to admit........ i am addicted to the songs of jason mraz right now... playing them up and down on my mp3... and yeah i think i am developing a hearing problem caused by too much mp3 listening arghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!
but i love those songs......love the lyrics ! he is a great entertainer.......and....
my doctor... my fabulous funny black sheep.... takes me to a concert of jason in september ! ( actually smiling a huuuuuuuuge smile !!!)
yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!
but i love those songs......love the lyrics ! he is a great entertainer.......and....
my doctor... my fabulous funny black sheep.... takes me to a concert of jason in september ! ( actually smiling a huuuuuuuuge smile !!!)
yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!
Jai......
so i got a visit from an old friend....jai :-)
we met to spend the day together in Lindau ( Germany ). i wished he could have stayed for a few days but he couldnt .....but i got the promise out of him that next time he would.
so julia and me took the train to meet him. it was like we never said goodbye. we didnt talk lots about the negative things that happend.... but we did talk a lot about the positive memories we had. its funny how someone remembers something about u or something that u said and u dont have any clue. i instantly felt close to him again.
he had a long and exciting journey in the last 4 years. i am sure it wont be long till we see each other again!
we had a very pleasant time in a park by the lake. wont go into details. but i finally got my massage..arghhhh neck and face and ooooooooh so nice!
glad u are back in my life! ;-)
Hello ;-)
now i formally have to say Hello to all of you! sorry i have been away for a bit but i hope i didnt lose all of my faithful readers!
i can see Aims was here! MISS U TOO !!!!!!
actually had a nice but short conversation with aims 2 days ago. ya i promise to stay sane and not go nutty on you! i think that will be an easy task for me to do lol he he
but u promise to stay away from these nuts over there! no going down on their level!!!
well u know what i mean.
sometimes friends just turn out to be something totally else as u hoped them to be. i made that experience too....sadly but true. u trust someone and they stab u in the back. it will happen and u cant do anything to prevent that. if u lay ur heart out to someone u always have to be prepared that the person isnt true.
i do have a lot of friends... but just a few know all of me.
i had a bike accident last week. we were out on a tour at night and Andi drove into me. it was an accident and it hurt me quite a bit. silke of course instantly started laughing as always...grrrrrr....
i knew he was feeling very lousy and i bit my tongue got on my bike and continued cycling. i was happy i had sunglasses on cause i cried all the way to the little lake. they knew i was hurting and i was being stubborn. Andi couldnt even look into my eyes. i knew he was feeling bad.
i didnt want him to feel more bad and smiled. but damn i was in pain.
i hardly made my way back und for the last part silke went to get the car to bring me home. we stopped at sabines place and he even wanted to help me on my way to the toilet.arghhhh ....didnt sleep too well the next days and was grumpy! sorry to all of ya :)
i gave the responsability of organising silkes bday to sabine. and she did a good job! got through that with medication.
he is such a sweet heart! love him to pieces. and hey ....if u have an issue with me ...talk to me and dont bump into me with ur bike ayyyyyyy lol he he
i did send an sms to my dear doctor in vienna who i knew was on duty... i asked for medical attention and he thought i was playing replying 1 day later :(
yeah i was not his fave patient.......he dont love meeeeeeeeeeeee :((
he tried to make it up by wanting to send medication by mail lol......isnt he funny.......i said i´ll survive......... yeah i am a survivor!
everything will be fine........ouch ouch oooooh ouch auaaaaaaaaah
Angie
i can see Aims was here! MISS U TOO !!!!!!
actually had a nice but short conversation with aims 2 days ago. ya i promise to stay sane and not go nutty on you! i think that will be an easy task for me to do lol he he
but u promise to stay away from these nuts over there! no going down on their level!!!
well u know what i mean.
sometimes friends just turn out to be something totally else as u hoped them to be. i made that experience too....sadly but true. u trust someone and they stab u in the back. it will happen and u cant do anything to prevent that. if u lay ur heart out to someone u always have to be prepared that the person isnt true.
i do have a lot of friends... but just a few know all of me.
i had a bike accident last week. we were out on a tour at night and Andi drove into me. it was an accident and it hurt me quite a bit. silke of course instantly started laughing as always...grrrrrr....
i knew he was feeling very lousy and i bit my tongue got on my bike and continued cycling. i was happy i had sunglasses on cause i cried all the way to the little lake. they knew i was hurting and i was being stubborn. Andi couldnt even look into my eyes. i knew he was feeling bad.
i didnt want him to feel more bad and smiled. but damn i was in pain.
i hardly made my way back und for the last part silke went to get the car to bring me home. we stopped at sabines place and he even wanted to help me on my way to the toilet.arghhhh ....didnt sleep too well the next days and was grumpy! sorry to all of ya :)
i gave the responsability of organising silkes bday to sabine. and she did a good job! got through that with medication.
he is such a sweet heart! love him to pieces. and hey ....if u have an issue with me ...talk to me and dont bump into me with ur bike ayyyyyyy lol he he
i did send an sms to my dear doctor in vienna who i knew was on duty... i asked for medical attention and he thought i was playing replying 1 day later :(
yeah i was not his fave patient.......he dont love meeeeeeeeeeeee :((
he tried to make it up by wanting to send medication by mail lol......isnt he funny.......i said i´ll survive......... yeah i am a survivor!
everything will be fine........ouch ouch oooooh ouch auaaaaaaaaah
Angie
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