old posts

OH MY GOD !!! I shouldn´t be doing this. This hurts. My old posts. NO i have to. It´s ok.
It´s all good.

luv_it_when_u_call_me_miel: are u happy when u are with karen?
madness181_69: being my self is what got me into this mess
madness181_69: yes...she makes me happy....

luv_it_when_u_call_me_miel: how is ya gf?
madness181_69: we broke up..
madness181_69: she had issues..
luv_it_when_u_call_me_miel: oh no
madness181_69: but I um...
luv_it_when_u_call_me_miel: sorry to hear
luv_it_when_u_call_me_miel: but u um?
madness181_69: went back to..
madness181_69: umm
luv_it_when_u_call_me_miel: dont say karen
madness181_69:
madness181_69: :-S
luv_it_when_u_call_me_miel: u went back to kitty?
madness181_69: yes
madness181_69: makes ya mad
madness181_69: doesnt it
luv_it_when_u_call_me_miel: not mad
luv_it_when_u_call_me_miel: makes me feel like shit
madness181_69: I thought it would
madness181_69: what happened to your bloke?
luv_it_when_u_call_me_miel: i broke up with him
madness181_69: ok
madness181_69: you never said
luv_it_when_u_call_me_miel: was it important?
madness181_69: no
madness181_69: i mean here on line
luv_it_when_u_call_me_miel: omg
luv_it_when_u_call_me_miel: i lost cause i wasnt online?
luv_it_when_u_call_me_miel: u know why i wasnt online
madness181_69: you dont get it..
luv_it_when_u_call_me_miel: and u knew how to contact me
madness181_69: you were busy
madness181_69: I know..
madness181_69: i contemplated that for so long
luv_it_when_u_call_me_miel: oh u mean she shows and i dont show myself naked and all
madness181_69: hey...
luv_it_when_u_call_me_miel: well i am sorry....i am just not like that
madness181_69: no thats not it
madness181_69: and its not fair
luv_it_when_u_call_me_miel: u asked me to be fair?
madness181_69: no i didnt
madness181_69: Angie..
luv_it_when_u_call_me_miel: i dont know what i have done to you so u treat me like that.....hurting me like this
luv_it_when_u_call_me_miel: but i have to accept
luv_it_when_u_call_me_miel: dont worry
luv_it_when_u_call_me_miel: i accept
madness181_69: I missed you heaps
madness181_69: really i did
luv_it_when_u_call_me_miel: u missed me so much u went back to karen
madness181_69: I just considered you had finished with me
madness181_69: thought you were happy with what was happening in your life..madness181_69: after I hurt you so much
madness181_69: I never knew that I would ever be considered again
luv_it_when_u_call_me_miel: u knew
madness181_69: i did not
luv_it_when_u_call_me_miel: but u didnt want too
madness181_69: I knew we would always be friends