its like this and that...

here we go again... another day...woke up tired... draggin myself through the day... at least
its a sunny day here... last days of summer... school starts soon... julia is growing up so fast...
hard for me to follow... she is a young lady now... but i dont feel old... new things wait ahead for her to discover...

i was so pissed off at a friend the last days... i was so emotional... she is a moody person... changes from one sec to the other... we have to deal with them... she is egoistic and puts herself always first... so i dont know ... was i pissed off cause i am not like that?... i wished i could be like that sometimes... but sabine said "its not us ange"... yeah i know... but where does nice get you?...

i asked that scott too... to where did nice and understanding bring me with him?... yeapehh... its true that the bitches get the nice guys... and we?... the funny thing i couldnt even do it...yeah its true... i am not like that...

so sabine and me wait for a guy who will love us for the women we are...

anybody out there? wants a nice female? sabine is having a hard time... she was so vulnerable and this idiot played her... and now wants to be friends... yeah right... we go through all this to be friends...

i wish i could understand why and how i feel the way i do about scott...i start to feel the same way as him... we need to meet and find out if its really meant to be...then end it or go on...

i feel trapped... hurt by the things he does or doesnt do... things he says or doesnt say...right now its the things he doesnt do or say... hurts a lot... i wanna be free...

its easy to jump into a new relationship... but its not what i want...having sex? easy... but worth it?...